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Fic for lilly0! (part 2)
To: lilly0, continued from part 1
Title: Entwined Hearts
Pairing/Group: Ohno Satoshi/Matsumoto Jun/Sakurai Sho
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: explicit sex scenes, BDSM, sex toys, barebacking
Word Count: 23,000++
Summary: Jun is happy with Satoshi and they have a great understanding in their relationship. But when Sho came into Jun’s life, Jun wonders in which direction the relationship is going.
Notes: Dear Lilly0, despite the terrible summary I hope this is okay with you. This is mostly smut with little plot. Please note that there is no cheating involved. Everything is consensual (and as requested, Jun as the sub in the relationship)
To the mod and beta, all the love to you. This fic is ten times better with your help.
Jun gave Satoshi a firm kiss before Satoshi left for the airport with a reminder that he must bring Jun an expensive gift from abroad.
The whole apartment fell silent as the door closed by itself.
Jun sat in his couch, his fingers gathered together in sweaty mess. In five hours from now, he would be meeting Sho at Sho’s house and staying there for the entirety of the weekend. And he felt his stomach fluttering in nervousness and excitement. He didn’t know what to anticipate and it made him slightly afraid. But he had agreed and Sho had said if he want to back out even at the last minute he could. Sho wouldn’t resent him if he chose that.
The wait was killing him. Jun couldn’t keep himself still for the whole five hours. He cleaned the house thoroughly, pulling out his entire wardrobe just to pick which clothes he would be bringing to Sho’s, cooking his best dish but not really eating it in the end because he was too nervous as the clock ticked closer to his appointment with Sho.
Forty-five minutes before 3.00 P.M, Jun shut his door closed. After making sure that it was locked properly, he carried his bag and walked to the train station towards Sho’s apartment. He kept watching his hands the entire time he was on the train, his heart pounding harder the closer he came.
He arrived ten minutes before the stipulated time. Jun waited until it was 3 o’clock sharp before he buzzed the intercom. He was granted entry a second later. He rode the lift and with a deep intake of breath he rang the bell. The door clicked open almost immediately.
The light was dim, so everything looked darker compared to the first time he went there since the curtain was drawn. Jun put his shoes inside the shoe rack and slipped his feet inside a pair of very comfy house slippers. Sho didn’t come to greet him but Sho knew he had arrived so Jun just lingered in the living room, touching the sofa leather since he didn’t know what else to do than wait.
Not long after, Sho showed himself, in a white shirt with a few buttons opened at the top, and a tight black pants that left little to imagination. Jun gulped, hearing his heart beat louder as Sho gestured Jun to follow him.
“Take a shower. I’ll wait in that room.” That room. Jun knew which one it was without needing Sho to elaborate it.
With a simple nod, Jun strolled to the bathroom. His bag was left on the floor in the living room.
Jun took a quick shower. He wasn’t sure whether he should be wearing anything or not but he decided to leave the towel he used on his person and wrapped it around his waist.
When he stepped inside Sho’s room, he saw Sho was standing in the middle of the room with an intense gaze that made Jun’s stomach flutter wildly. The room was bare, besides the drawers that was built at one side of the room. There was a hook on the ceiling, but besides that, there was nothing, not even a carpet. Sho gestured Jun to approach him.
“Do you trust me?” Sho asked when Jun stopped in front of him.
“Yes,” Jun croaked. He felt his heart lodge in his throat.
“Your safe word?”
Jun paused.
“White.” He blurted the word out a moment later.
“White?” Sho arched his eyebrow, in confirmation.
“As in white flag.” Jun confirmed. Honestly, he couldn’t think of anything else even after thinking about it for so long.
Jun saw Sho’s mouth curled up in amusement before he went serious.
“Lose your towel.” Jun loosen up the hold of the towel on his waist and put it aside.
“If you want to stop, just use your safe word. Remember that. Do you understand?”
Jun nodded.
“Yes or no?” Sho was already in his role right now.
“Yes,” Jun managed to say.
“Good. If you follow my instruction I’ll make sure you’ll take more enjoyment out of this, okay?”
“Yes,” Jun replied.
Sho went to his collection, taking a couple of items out and circled around Jun, and stood there. He gathered both of Jun’s hands behind his back and within a minute Jun couldn’t move his wrists as they were firmly strapped together behind him. So, Sho was going to use bondage on his first session. Before Jun could think about anything else, his vision went dark as he was blindfolded. He was completely shocked because he had never been blindfolded before and the situation was making him panic before he heard soft whispers from Sho that he was there with him. Then Jun calmed down a bit because he trusted that Sho would not harm him.
There was a feather-like touch that travelled from his face, to his neck, his clavicles, shoulders and finally to his arms that made Jun shiver slightly. The urged to remove the blindfold was so strong Jun found himself tugging at the bindings that were holding his wrists.
It was annoying to not see anything. Jun didn’t notice that he was tensing.
“Relax.” Suddenly he heard the word being whispered in his left ear. The warmth of the breath shot a shiver through Jun’s body.
“Breathe.”
Jun took a deep breath and released it. He did this a few times, just what he was told. Then he finally sensed his body untensing.
Much calmer than before, he felt that he was more responsive than usual. Sensing Sho’s scent, Jun felt Sho’s presence even though he was pretty quiet right now. That he wasn’t lonely. His sense of sight was blocked but the rest of his senses were heightened.
“Do you still want to proceed?” Sho’s deep voice invaded Jun’s hearing.
“Yes,” Jun answered in the surest sense possible. Yes, he was ready for more.
Then he felt the touch again. He wasn’t sure what material Sho used. For sure it wasn’t the rose petals he previously used on him. It nearly tickled him as the thing travelled further down behind his back, touching the cleft and then it went to the front, and went below to his bellybutton.
Jun nearly laughed out loud. It was ticklish and he was weak to that. For a moment Jun thought what so pleasurable about this ticklish thing?
Jun hissed as it grazed both his nipples. And then Sho attacked him more when Sho ran the thing on the head of his cock in a split moment making Jun gasped.
Okay, now that might change his mind.
He heard Sho chuckle. Most of the time, Sho was quiet, silently doing his thing, only the sound of his breathing was heard. It was quite comforting now to hear Sho’s voice and Jun wanted to listen more, because right now Sho’s voice felt reassuring to him.
“Sho-san?”
“Did I tell you to speak?”
Jun fell silent. He hadn’t thought that he would be told off. He had forgotten Sho’s explanation before they started this: no talking unless permitted because Sho didn’t like that.
Sho resumed what he was doing. The more Sho touched him, avoiding the places Jun wanted the most, the heavier Jun’s breaths became. He wanted to call out to Sho, to replace the toy with Sho’s hands instead because he just wanted to feel more.
His thighs were quivering when he heard Sho again.
“Kneel.” Jun heard Sho say. He needed a moment to be able to understand Sho’s sudden instruction.
The play with the feather or whatever that thing was had left him in an excited cloud. He wasn’t sure why Sho wanted him to kneel, but he followed the instruction. Slowly Jun lowered his body down on the soft flooring. A slight fear passed through him because the blindfold was still on him but at the same time he was eager to follow Sho’s instruction too. He couldn’t see anything but suddenly Sho was a few inches closer to him. Jun was relieved of the presence and he knew it was Sho because of the smell of his cologne.
And then he heard a zip being opened. Jun felt his tension rise. Sho’s cock was on his cheek.
“Suck me.” Sho ordered.
Jun didn’t hesitate. He tilted his head to find Sho’s cock and when he did, he stuck out his tongue to give it a test lick. Sho sucked in some air when Jun wrapped his mouth around the head, swirling his tongue. Jun started slow, wrapping Sho’s cock further inside his mouth, tuning his ears to hear Sho’s reaction to his play. When he heard the sounds Sho made, he felt happy because Sho was reacting exactly like he wanted, giving him the confidence. Jun wanted to give more.
He bobbed his head more vigorously, wanting to pleasure Sho to the best of his ability. Sho grabbed a handful of hair and Jun’s hiss was drowned by Sho’s cock inside his mouth. Jun nearly gagged when Sho started to fuck his mouth and the tip of Sho’s cock hit the back of Jun’s throat. Sho gave a warning when he was close and Jun was ready to accept.
“Swallow it.” Sho gasped out his instruction and Jun found himself swallowing everything that came inside his mouth although some of it leaked from the corner of his mouth and dropped down onto the floor.
Jun was panting on his knees when Sho pull out. Jun felt his cock was hard and he wanted a release too but with both of his hand bound together, he couldn’t touch himself.
“Sho-san~,” He gasped, trying to catch his breath. He licked his swollen lips.
“Did I say I’ve given you permission to talk yet?”
Jun shook his head.
“Answer me.”
“No,” Jun managed to say.
“If you don’t want to be punished, follow what I say, understood?” Sho was still panting. At least to Jun, even if he couldn’t see Sho right now, he was confident that he had done well.
“Yes.” Jun lowered his head.
Jun wanted to come desperately but he didn’t want to move, afraid that he would be denied release if Sho chose to punish him with that. So, he stayed in his position, wondering what else Sho wanted to do with him. He heard Sho walk to his back.
“You want to say anything?” Sho asked from behind. Jun shook his head in denial. He didn’t want to use the safe word. He was confident that he could still withstand Sho’s torturous teasing.
Sho crouched behind Jun. Suddenly, Sho’s lubed finger breached his hole. Jun squeezed his eyes shut, focusing on relaxing himself. With three fingers in, the sensation of pleasure intensified. His activity with Satoshi inside him last night had made him easy to prepare. Sho didn’t remark on it and Jun thought that Sho had probably noticed Satoshi’s bite mark on his shoulder anyway.
Then Sho crooked his fingers, hitting Jun’s spot deep inside him and continuously doing so. Jun mewled and moaned and he was sure he was letting out a sob because of too much attack on his senses. Even so, he wanted Sho to touch his cock too.
In his panting, he thought he heard Sho say something.
“Wha~?” Jun croaked out.
“Tell me what you want.” Sho said.
“I want to come…” Jun said in between pants. He wanted it, no, he needed it so badly.
“Beg me.”
“Please… Please…”
Immediately after that, Jun felt Sho’s hand touching his straining cock. All Jun could feel right now was the fingers moving in his hole and the others on his cock, pumping it until Jun couldn’t think about anything besides the pleasure Sho’s fingers gave him. When Sho crooked his finger to hit his prostate once again, Jun lost it.
Jun let his body crash forward, his come sticking his body to the floor. His breath was so fast he found himself losing his coherency for a moment.
He heard Sho moved behind him and released him out of his bindings and blindfold. Finally, Jun could see. He couldn’t believe how relieved he was to be getting his vision back once more. Sho pulled him up to stand on his feet but Jun’s thighs were still trembling so that he stumbled. But Sho didn’t let Jun fall and Jun clung to him tightly. Sho chuckled. It seemed that Sho had broken his act.
“You did pretty good.”
“Shut up.” Jun managed to say.
Sho led him to the shower and then afterwards they both sat on Sho’s bed, naked bodies wrapped underneath the duvet, with TV in front of them showing a random channel. Sho had brought a glass of juice to his bed and Jun was thankful because he didn’t think that he would manage to walk to the kitchen to grab something to drink.
“Thank you.” Sho said.
Jun turned at Sho, surprised. He nearly spit his fruit juice out of his mouth. “Why?” he asked dumbly.
“Because you’re willing to indulge me.”
Jun stared at him for a moment and then he chortled. “I’m sure many men are willing to indulge you, not just me.”
“Not many that stick around. Most of them run away when they see my collections.” Jun looked at him in disbelief.
“They never thought that someone like me would like something like that,” Sho added.
Jun seemed to agree. At first Jun had been surprised too and wary about the whole thing. But what he went through today made him change his mind, a little bit. Surprisingly, it wasn’t that bad.
“Did you enjoy our session today?”
“Yes, very much so.” It was an honest assessment. Jun smiled when Sho kissed his bare shoulder.
“Just remember, you can back out anytime if you don’t like anything I’ll be trying on you.”
“I remember that.”
It sealed the promise that there would be more sessions after this.
With that they spent the whole afternoon together on the bed, napping for a while before they woke up at 8.00 P.M to grumbling stomachs. They went out to a restaurant to eat and then later on, went drinking together in a bar. Jun found himself more attracted to the man because during this time he could see how comfortable Sho was with him, laughing carefreely and Jun had to say that he loved Sho’s boisterous laugh.
They went back to Sho’s apartment when it was pretty late into the night. Jun found himself being pulled more towards Sho as he showed how affectionate he could be after showing his seriousness during the session. The gap made Jun fall deeper into the pit.
And Jun noticed that Sho’s loud snore could compete with Satoshi’s.
It looked like they could have normal sex after all. Jun had been wondering about whether all their sex meetings would end inside the room but when Sho gave Jun head as morning greeting, it shut Jun up.
And then they had a quick fuck inside the shower stall where finally Jun had the opportunity to fondle Sho’s perky butt. The rest of the day went by normally as they went out to grab a bite and walked together at the park. Jun said goodbye to him later that day and immediately after he walked away from the building he was already missing Sho a lot.
Jun took a deep breath, taking out his phone to find Satoshi had sent him a text message in the morning to tell him that he had arrived safely in Sydney. Jun felt bad because he didn’t notice it before so he sent a message saying that he was glad that Satoshi had made it. Jun smiled when Satoshi sent him a picture of him with a fish he caught afterward.
All in all, it was definitely a great weekend. Even if he had to be alone for the rest of the week and the next few weeks - unless Sho called for him again - he felt that it wasn’t that bad.
However, he missed Satoshi so badly by the end of the week that Jun called Satoshi in the middle of the night and woke Satoshi up in his hotel room. The talk turned into a phone sex and Jun slept great afterwards.
Jun’s phone was his best friend. Every time he started to feel lonely he would bother Satoshi even when he had to wake Satoshi up. Even listening to his breath was enough to Jun. Sometimes, the calls went to Satoshi’s inbox and Jun started to wish that he could call Sho instead.
~
Tomorrow would be Jun’s and Satoshi’s anniversary and Jun had decided to go out drinking with some friends but then he cancelled the plan after he received a message from Sho.
Sho asked Jun to meet him again at his house at 8.00 P.M tomorrow. Jun frowned because tomorrow -besides it being him and Satoshi’s anniversary - was also a weekday. It felt like Sho knew that Jun needed him.
Nevertheless, Jun was excited for another session.
Jun had an hour-long conversation with Satoshi. Satoshi was unexpectedly talkative, perhaps wanting to make it up to Jun for not being there with him to celebrate their anniversary together. Jun assured him he was all right, that he would be meeting a friend right after this. At the end of the conversation, Satoshi told him to take care of himself and be safe and they hung up right after. Satoshi knew that the friend Jun would be meeting was for sex and Jun wondered if Satoshi would change his mind, especially since today was the special day from them but Satoshi didn’t say anything to forbid him. Jun assumed it was all right. If Satoshi had said he disapproved, Jun would cancel his plans with Sho. No question asked.
After Jun had arrived at Sho’s house, as usual he was ordered to take a shower. The feelings of fear and excitement came again. This time there was a table in the middle of the room for them to use. Fifteen minutes later Jun found himself lying flat on his stomach, all his limbs bound to the table’s legs with a rope, leaving him helpless like a starfish stranded on a beach.
At first Jun yelped in pain when he was smacked on his buttocks with Sho’s bare hand, but the yelps turned to moans as Jun adjusted to the sensation and the arousal that filled him with waves of pleasure as Sho’s expert hands worked Jun up.
Despite the difficult position Jun managed to suck Sho off and then received the full extent of Sho’s cock inside him, Sho thrusting into him until the table moved, creaking loudly, the sound mixing with their lusty moans reverberated around the room. Jun was begging Sho to make him come but since Jun still didn’t use his safe word it made Sho push his endurance to a new level. Sho used a dildo on him, abusing his prostate repeatedly before Sho replaced it with his cock and pounded into him for the second time until Jun released without being touched.
Afterwards in bed, Jun leaned back on Sho’s chest. Jun was making a pleased sound as Sho caressed the skin on his wrist as they watched the TV together. Jun loved the aftercare and the extra attention Sho gave him after their session. Jun found himself looking forward to more. It was almost midnight and suddenly his phone that he placed on Sho’s bedside table flashed with a notification. It was from Satoshi. Jun moved to grab it and opened the message, not minding that Sho was able to read the message. Jun didn’t feel the need to be secretive since Sho already knew about Satoshi.
Happy Anniversary once again. I wish that you were in my arms now.
Jun smiled at the message. It was already 12:57 A.M on that side of the world and Satoshi was probably already in his bed. His eyes flitted at the time shown on his phone. Japan was one hour behind. It was nearly the end of their anniversary. He typed. Me too.
Jun managed to send the message one minute before twelve. His phone beeped again indication another incoming message.
I love you and goodnight.
Jun replied, I love you and have sweet dreams, my dear Satoshi.
Then a heart emoji with a sleepy face came up on Jun’s screen.
Jun smiled widely before closing his phone and put it aside.
“So, it’s your anniversary today,” Sho remarked. His hand came up to Jun’s head to play with his hair absentmindedly.
“Yes.” Jun answered honestly.
“But your boyfriend is not here,” Sho stated the obvious.
“No.” It was the truth. And Sho already knew about it.
“Pity that you’re always being left alone.” Sho added later. Jun frowned at his tone.
Jun turned around completely. Sho’s hand hung mid-air when Jun detached himself off Sho’s body. The need to defend his boyfriend was so strong that Jun couldn’t help himself. He didn’t want Sho to misunderstand.
“His job is important,” Jun told Sho firmly.
Sho rebutted almost immediately. “But you’re important too. He should know his priority.”
Jun could feel his whole body tensing. Sho shouldn’t talk about things he didn’t understand. Jun didn’t like hearing him criticize Satoshi when Sho didn’t know anything about his boyfriend. “He’s a good man and I don’t like you implying that he isn’t good to me.”
They stared at each other. A tense moment passed by before Sho smiled apologetically. “I’m sorry. My bad. I shouldn’t intrude in your relationship. It’s clear that you love him so much.”
Jun felt his shoulders relaxing. He took his eyes away from Sho’s, staring at phone like he was waiting for Satoshi’s call or message. “I love him very much,” Jun stated.
His eyes turned to Sho again. For some reason, Jun didn’t want to stop there. Jun had told him briefly about Satoshi before but never in detail.
“I need you to know this,” Jun began.
“Alright,” Sho replied, ready to listen.
“We’ve been through a lot together. I’m sure of my feelings for him now and I’m sure about his feelings for me too. It’s true that he always away because of his job. But I tolerate it because I love him.”
Jun paused.
“At first my thought was the same as yours. Why does Satoshi always leave? Why can’t he pick another job so we see each other frequently, waking up to each other every day, have his warm body next to mine every night? It’s the ideal relationship, right? We live in the same house but why we can’t have that? I always asked him this question repeatedly. He never got angry at me when I sulked and didn’t want to speak to him. It went on for weeks after we got together. You see, we hadn’t seen each other much for quite a long time before he confessed to me and I didn’t understand anything about his job besides going to the ocean and traveling. It can’t be helped when there’s miscommunication involved too. But one day after I went along with him to see what he does in his job, I understood his job better.
I saw his passion. Well, I saw his passion towards me when we were together but when he is in his element, being surrounded by ocean and fish, I saw a different side of him, like he lives to do that kind of thing. His passion in teaching the others about how to appreciate our ocean and its content is admirable. I admire him. I adore him a lot. And since that day, I promised myself to be more understanding and right now, I’m able to accept that. The situation became normal to us because I trust him. We trust each other.”
Jun drew a deep breath.
“After all I’m still a normal human being. I do miss him when he’s not around but we’ll always come back to each other. That’s the most important thing to us.”
He felt his lips trembling. He never told anyone about how he felt towards Satoshi’s absence because Jun believed that the matter was to be kept only between them and now the words easily tumbled off him when he was with Sho.
Jun lifted his eyes when Sho leaned into him to kiss him sweetly on his lips. Sho’s hand was now going up and down his arm in a soothing motion.
“I wish I had someone like you to come back to.”
Jun blinked at Sho. At that moment, the air suddenly turned awkward. There was something in Sho’s eyes that made Jun’s heart suddenly beat faster.
“You have me now.” Jun told him lightly, trying to mask his sudden uneasiness. He didn’t want to go deeper into what Sho was implying there. He didn’t even want to know.
It was Sho’s turn to blink, like he didn’t realize what he had just implied. “Yes, I have you now,” Sho said after a moment just to break the awkwardness. Sho pecked his lips. Jun sighed, not sure whether it was out of relief that Sho didn’t steer the topic to what Jun wasn’t ready to discuss or just because the kiss Sho gave him now was to his liking.
They kissed more. Sho deepened the kiss, his arms wounded possessively on Jun. It was like he wanted to own Jun too but that was impossible, Jun was Satoshi’s. But for tonight, Sho owned him.
When Jun’s tired but content body crashed down on Sho after he rode Sho’s cock, he heard Sho whisper to him.
“Show me your Satoshi.”
Still panting, Jun looked at Sho in question, scrutinising him whether Sho was indeed serious. Sho shrugged. “I just want to see the person who has your heart right now.”
Jun moved to picked up his phone and unlocked it.
Jun let Sho look through the pictures on his phone. “Cute.” Sho said. Jun agreed wholeheartedly.
“I wish you could meet him one day,” Jun added, lowering his head on Sho’s chest, pouting because he didn’t know how it could ever happen. Sho stayed silent, kissing Jun’s head instead.
~
Jun gave his boyfriend the biggest hug when Jun picked him up at the airport. “I missed you a lot!” Jun said to him before they kissed rather briefly because of Satoshi’s friends beginning to coo and whistling at them. Jun, feeling heat creeping up his cheeks, grabbed Satoshi’s hand to head towards the taxi.
Right away as they opened their apartment door, Satoshi pushed Jun against the wall and they fucked before they could even get their clothes off. Jun clung to Satoshi with all his might feeling his boyfriend’s cock moving inside him and filling him up with his come. He had really missed his boyfriend.
After that they were catching up with each other during a late lunch where Jun brought Satoshi to an Italian restaurant and then went shopping until Satoshi complained that his legs were nearly falling off. Jun reminded that they had to make up the time they missed since Satoshi had promised that he would do anything Jun wanted to do because he had missed their anniversary. Even though Jun hadn’t been too lonely that day, a promise was a promise. Jun laughed when Satoshi nearly fell asleep inside the shoe shops as Jun took his time picking a pair of shoes. “I choose based on feelings!” Jun said to Satoshi when his boyfriend told him to be faster.
They were leaving the shop when suddenly Satoshi bumped into a gentleman in suit. Jun nearly gasped openly when he saw that it was Sho. Sho bowed a little to apologize at Satoshi and they had a few words while Jun just looked at them, dumbfounded. He didn’t understand why he couldn’t say anything when Sho smiled at him before he walked away. Jun wondered whether it was intentional or not. Sho didn’t look annoyed, instead he looked pretty satisfied with himself.
Right after that Jun told Satoshi that he wanted to go home. Jun successfully hidden the fact from Satoshi that he was pretty shaken up with the sudden turn of event. He wanted Sho to meet with Satoshi but it should be a well-planned meeting not a sudden, unexpected occurrence like what had just happened.
He wanted them to start off on the right foot.
~
Jun’s life went back to its usual pace right after. The unexpected meeting was pushed to the back of his mind. Sho didn’t contact him and vice versa. Jun was relieved because he was busy with his boyfriend now. Satoshi was having a month holiday so it was Satoshi’s turn to stay at home. Jun was happy because every night when he came home, Satoshi had already prepared him a meal and a hot bath. He was being totally spoiled by Satoshi and he found that he wasn’t thinking about Sho too much when his boyfriend was around.
But when he was alone, and had time to think to himself, such as when he was commuting to and from work, he found himself thinking about Sho as much as he thought about Satoshi. Jun didn’t think his feelings towards Satoshi was wavering but instead it was his feelings towards Sho which had grown a lot.
He felt afraid of his feelings. He wasn’t sure whether it was the right feelings to harbour for someone else other than Satoshi but it felt wrong to him. But what could he do? He didn’t want to lose Sho either, that thought frightened him.
He chose the easiest route; to ignore the unwanted and confusing thought for the time being.
It felt like Satoshi’s holiday came to an end a bit too fast for Jun’s liking when he needed to go away for his work again. And it was like Sho knew that Jun was beginning to feel lonely when he texted Jun again for another session.
~
“You’re so flexible,” Sho said as he pulled both of Jun’s legs upward, the ankles nearly reaching Jun’s head. Sho then proceeded to strap those legs with ropes to the armchair that Sho owned. Jun, who already had his hands bound behind his head was straining on the sofa, buck naked. He wasn’t really that flexible but he could bend his extremities when the situation required him to do that, like right now. Sweat was gathering on Jun’s temple and Sho wiped it away.
With him bound firmly to the armchair, he was totally exposed and vulnerable. He couldn’t move even a bit. A small button that would chime when it was pressed was held firmly inside his fist.
Jun’s moan was muffled with the ball gag preventing his mouth from speaking as Sho touched his flushed cock when a dildo was pushed inside him. Jun could hear clearly the squelching sound the dildo made when it went in and out of his properly lubed hole. He could only stare at Sho as he expressed how Sho’s ministration was doing to his body with his eyes. Saliva was trailing out the corner of his mouth, dripping onto his neck and Sho left it there without bothering to wipe it.
The whole time Sho was staring at him smugly, whispering dirty words to Jun that heightened Jun’s arousal. Jun eventually had to close his eyes when he was close to climax. His whole body was shuddering as he orgasmed. He tried to jerk away when Sho touched him again since he hadn’t calmed down yet. He was still so sensitive and Sho was deliberately touching the over-sensitive slit on the head of his cock and then pumping his softening cock. But the restraints held him tightly in place. Jun was helpless. He wanted to scream that it was too much to him. He felt he hadn’t recovered from the first orgasm and yet Sho went on to get him his second one. Jun’s fist tightened around the button but no sound was made because despite the complaint Jun screamed in his head, he actually didn’t want Sho to stop.
Jun didn’t think that he could get hard again but he did. Perhaps his refractory period was suddenly shortened on that day when Jun felt that he was hardening again in Sho’s fingers with the constant touch. Jun found his eyes rolled back in intense pleasure and a whine came out of him as he shuddered for another climax.
Jun was pretty wasted afterwards and as usual he let Sho care for him. They were quietly eating their dinner at the dinner table when Sho said calmly to Jun something that made Jun nearly spit out his food.
“I want to meet your Satoshi properly.”
~
Jun was troubled. He found that he couldn’t concentrate anywhere, whether at home or at work. At least at work when it got too busy it took away his attention for a while but then, he went back to his preoccupied state when he took a break.
All his mind was thinking of was how to break the topic to Satoshi. He had tried once but failed. As expected, Satoshi could be stubborn when he wanted to. He remembered the conversation they had when Jun drove Satoshi back to the airport after Satoshi came back home briefly to surprise Jun.
Recently Satoshi often did this in an effort to make it up to Jun for missing their anniversary and Jun couldn’t deny that he was happy about it.
They were talking casually, mostly Jun asking about how Satoshi was doing since they were too busy fucking instead of chatting.
Right after a prolonged silence, Jun could see the sign for the turn to the airport not so far ahead of him and thought that it was now or never.
“Say Satoshi…” Jun said nervously. He could hear Satoshi hum in reply and he felt his throat drying.
“About the friend of mine, he-“ Jun was cut off abruptly.
“I’ve told you, you’re free to do anything you want as long as you’re happy and safe.”
“But Satoshi, he-“ Jun tried again but he was also interrupted for the second time with a drastic change of topic.
“Oh, you need to turn to the left.” Satoshi pointed at the sign.
Jun managed to steal a look at Satoshi who was looking in front of him, now humming a song. He was in disbelief. It was clear that Satoshi wanted to avoid the topic. Internally Jun was frustrated but he needed to focus on his driving and made the turn to the right road.
After that, they kept their silence until they said their goodbyes.
Jun huffed in frustration as he saw the plane Satoshi was aboard flying away to the horizon.
After the fail attempt, Jun decided to leave Sho’s request buried at the back of his mind. Sho didn’t bring the matter up again during another session that came after that.
Jun’s wrists were hooked onto the chain that was connected to the ceiling. His body jerked every time Sho’s paddle that was made out soft leather touched his skin. Jun squeezed his eyes shut, trying to concentrate on the sensation. At first, he felt just a tiny sting and his mind wandered unwillingly to what was troubled him the most; mostly about the matter with Satoshi and Sho. However, when the hits began to feel painful to him, he let out yelp after yelp as the paddle hit him. He could’ve used his safe word this time, but he didn’t want to disappoint Sho so he endured the pain. His mind drifted in and out and he didn’t notice that Sho was saying something to him.
Then everything stopped. Jun cracked open his eyes in confusion and saw Sho crowding his face. Did he do something? Did he utter his safe word?
“You’re distracted,” Sho told him.
Jun widened his eyes. How did Sho know? Was it too obvious? He asked himself.
Sho unhooked him and lead him to the bedroom.
“I want you to rest here,” Sho said softly, as he laid Jun gently on his bed. All the while Jun was staring at him he wondered why Sho looked worried about him.
When Sho climbed on the bed to be beside him, wrapping his body around Jun, burying his face against Jun’s neck, Jun realized that his whole body was trembling and sweating. Sho told him that they had been doing it for more than an hour and Sho hadn’t seen any signs that Jun was enjoying it. He was sorry that he was ignoring the fact that Jun wasn’t enjoying as much as he was because he was too eager to use the newly bought item on Jun.
Seeing how Sho was so apologetic and trying hard to soothe him, Jun felt so bad that he made Sho unhappy. He had disappointed Sho, he had failed him today and he was so upset about it.
So, he turned around, burying his face in Sho’s still-fully-clothed chest and cried. Jun heard the panicked noises Sho made but he ignored Sho’s calls as he tried to desperately calm Jun down.
It turned worse when Jun started to worry that he might lose Sho sooner or later, that he cried harder.
That was the time when he realized the depth of his feelings for Sho: he had fallen for him hard and he was so helpless.
Jun apologized to Sho. Immediately after his tears had ceased he excused himself. Jun refused when Sho offered to accompany him or even drive him back to his apartment. The guilt was eating Jun up when he saw Sho’s worried face. He said goodbye to Sho on his entryway, feeling himself choking up as Sho placed a soft kiss on his forehead.
Why was Sho showing his lovely side when there was an important decision for him to make?
“Call me when you’ve arrived at home,” Sho said, his hand touching Jun’s arm. Jun gave a noncommittal nod that made Sho frown. Jun turned to the door effectively denying Sho’s attempt to kiss him when he reached for the door handle to open the door and stepped outside quickly, letting the door separated him from Sho as it closed by itself.
Jun buried himself inside his blanket when he arrived home, refusing to answer the call when his phone rang incessantly. It was probably from Sho and he didn’t want to talk to him right now. By the end of the hour, there were six missed calls from Sho and a text message from Satoshi. He didn’t answer any.
It wasn’t Sho’s fault. The problem came from him. He had gotten carried away. He stared blankly at himself in the full mirror inside his room, fully naked. The redness on the different spots on his body from the spanking that Sho gave him were still visible when he made his decision; to stop seeing Sho, to stop everything they started.
The choice was either Satoshi or Sho and when he found himself unable to choose, he had gotten scared.
He was in love with both of them.
And he couldn’t accept it because there was no way he would break up with his boyfriend for Sho.
Besides, he didn’t even know what was Sho’s feelings towards him. For all he knew, there could be nothing.
His heart twisted painfully.
~
“Earth to Jun!”
Jun blinked when a hand was waved in front of him. He was out drinking with Aiba who was currently in Tokyo to attend a short course on behalf of his company. They couldn’t pass up the opportunity to drink together because they hadn’t seen each other for quite some time.
Aiba was staring at him with worried eyes.
“Is there something wrong?”
Aiba could be so perceptive when he wanted to be. Or it was just Jun being too obvious.
“Nothing,” Jun denied too quickly. He brought his beer to his lip for a long sip, just as an excuse not to speak. Obviously, he didn’t look convincing when Aiba tutted at him, in disapproval of Jun’s pathetic attempt to lie.
“Matsujun, you can’t lie to me. Tell me what’s wrong? Is it Satoshi?”
For the next few minutes, Jun was able to hold his ground and resisted Aiba’s incessant coaxing but he finally cracked, because it was Aiba.
So, he told Aiba everything there was to tell; about his relationship with Satoshi, about their unique arrangement, about meeting Sho and the nature of their relationship and finally how he was currently in love with both men.
Aiba’s jaw was threatening to drop onto the floor by the end of Jun’s story. Jun supposed that it was too shocking to take for his poor friend.
“So, what you’re going to do?” Aiba asked, after he managed to recover.
Jun sighed as he buried his head in his hands. “I don’t know Masaki, I really have no idea.”
~
The phone felt so hot on his ear. Jun was much calmer after talking for over two hours with Satoshi. The talk was about random topics. Jun didn’t think he could even insert Sho’s name inside the conversation.
He was already comfortable in his pyjamas, lying alone on the bed he shared with Satoshi. His eyes were nearly closing as he said his goodbye over the phone. Jun sighed when his eyes accidently flitted to the books he borrowed from Sho which were placed on the bedside table. They seemed to be mocking him. Then he sighed again when he checked his phone battery.
The battery nearly died and he needed to recharge it. As he reached the charger, his phone suddenly rang and before he could see who was calling him it died with a beep.
After the phone was successfully turned on, he checked his call log. His stomach fluttered when he found out that it was Sho. Jun was contemplating whether to call him back or not but he thought it was better not to. If he did, it might melt his resolve the moment he heard Sho’s voice.
It wasn’t like him to be evasive and let things hang just like that but his emotions were too fragile right now. He might run to Sho if he wanted Jun right now. He couldn’t let that happen, not until he talked to Satoshi properly, face-to-face.
~
Jun received text messages from Sho and there weren’t about him inviting him to his home. Instead they were laced with worry… and desperation.
Jun, are you okay? Call me back, please.
Please. Jun chuckled bitterly as the word reminded him of one of their session where he had to beg Sho.
Talk about the longing…
Then there was another one. We need to talk. Call me.
Jun sighed as he exited the apps and closed his phone before he slipped it into his pocket.
~
After a week of refusing to reply to any of Sho’s contact, he found himself being pulled to the nearest emergency exit in his workplace by someone who had such a familiar scent to him.
“Sho-san? What are you doing here?” Jun squeaked in surprise as he was thrown into the wall in a thud.
Sho looked scary when he was angry. “I’m here on business but that’s beside the point. You’re avoiding me. Why?”
“I— I’m not… What are you talking about?” Jun denied, but he was stuttering when Sho pinned him to the wall with their bodies nearly touching but not yet. A hand was slammed onto the wall near to Jun’s face and another one gripping Jun’s arm tightly. Sho’s body heat and scent overwhelmed Jun; he wanted to bury his face into that scent and stay there forever.
“Is it because Satoshi is forbidding you from seeing me?” Sho asked seriously.
“No!” Jun denied sincerely.
“Then why?” Sho’s voice sounded fragile, so far from the initial anger and his normal behaviour. His shoulders dropped, making the sloping more pronounced, even with the pads in his suit.
When Jun didn’t answer, Sho continued in a whisper. “Is it because of our last session? Was I being too hard on you?”
Jun turned up and locked his gaze with Sho. Sho’s breaths were fanning his face and he looked so desperate, Jun wanted to cup his face and kiss every inch of that face.
“I can’t anymore… I’m not strong enough…”
“Then why didn’t you tell me?” There was thin layer of moisture on Sho’s eyes and Jun felt like breaking down. A thought passed him. Why was he being cruel to Sho? Sho genuinely thought that it was because of what had happened last time when it wasn’t. Sho deserved the whole truth.
“… I love Satoshi…” He blurted these words out, effectively denying that their last session was the culprit.
Sho narrowed his eyes at him. “That didn’t hold you back before. What changed?”
“What changed...” Jun nearly chuckled in bitterness and resignation.
Jun sighed, dropping his gaze to his feet. He chewed his lower lip. “Because I’ve fallen in love with you. That’s why…” he whispered, not really caring if Sho heard him or not.
Jun felt like he wanted to run away, he felt stupid to see Sho stare blankly at him, like Jun was making a stupid joke. What was he thinking? Confessing to Sho?
Sho loosened his grip. Jun was holding back his tears. In the pit of his stomach he was sure that Sho would leave him right after this. Since Jun had let his feelings get the better of him, he was going to lose Sho. They had never discussed the possibility of the situation occurring before and Jun assumed that someone like Sho might not want anything to do with feelings. Sho had everything, he could get anything and anyone he wanted; why would he want to get involved with something complicated like feelings? Especially with someone like him who had an established relationship with someone else? As far as he knew, it could be one-sided on his part.
His mind wandered to his boyfriend, who was now in Hokkaido. Satoshi didn’t know about Sho and probably didn’t care about him but he was sure that the situation would be different if Satoshi found out that Jun loved someone else. That would break their trust completely.
His stomach twisted with the possibility of everything ending up badly. He could be losing both Satoshi and Sho at the same time.
Sho was still looking at him emotionlessly. Jun couldn’t stand the hurt and the humiliation he got from the look. It was better to go, Jun thought as he couldn’t stand the tension any longer so he pushed Sho away, who was standing still like a mannequin, a handsome one at that and as the result Sho stepped back to give Jun space.
But before Jun managed to reach the door, he made an oomph sound when Sho grabbed him tightly from behind.
Jun’s eyes went wide hearing Sho’s words that came next.
“I’ve fallen for you too…”
~
Jun and Sho sat face to face at a table inside a coffee shop. The scent of coffee filled up Jun’s nostril and he basked in it, inhaling it as the smell calmed him.
They didn’t need words to pass the time. Sho had less than an hour more to spare before he needed to go somewhere. At least the confessions had helped settled their misunderstandings. Jun smiled at Sho, feeling shy all of the sudden. Sho smiled back as he put his coffee cup down on the table.
“I’m glad we settled this. I thought I was going to lose you.”
“I have to apologize for that…” Jun said, feeling his guilt at his thoughtless action creep up on him, making his cheeks flushed. To be honest he thought he’d lose Sho too.
“Don’t be. It’s my fault too,” Sho added.
No, Jun said in his mind, Sho had nothing to be sorry for. He reached for Sho’s hand resting on the table.
“I promise I’ll talk with Satoshi when he gets home.”
Sho smiled warmly.
~
The timing was never right. Jun was either out of town when Satoshi came home or Satoshi was out again when Jun was home. For the time being he wasn’t seeing Sho either. They had agreed on it in that coffee shop.
So, it was a rather a desperate situation when he opted to watch some porn after not being with either men for over three weeks and he was horny.
Satoshi looked like he was just coming back from a formal event when he showed himself at the door to their apartment. He still had his suit on when he found Jun naked on the couch in front of the TV, touching himself. Satoshi shed his suit quickly before walking towards Jun with his shirt and tie still on him. Immediately it made Jun so happy he welcomed him with open arms. Jun whimpered and moaned as Satoshi was doing his best to make Jun feel good. It was without thinking that when Satoshi came up to kiss him, Jun loosened up Satoshi’s tie and then showed Satoshi the tie that was in his hands. “Tie me up with this.” Jun didn’t realize his words due to his lust but when Satoshi seemed to freeze and eventually moved away from him that Jun realized the full extent of his request.
Jun’s heart was beating wildly as he saw Satoshi sat on the couch in their living room so quietly it made Jun scared and hesitant to approach him. Then after some time Satoshi spoke. Jun had to strain his ears in order to hear him.
“Who is he?” Satoshi asked.
Jun shivered due to the coldness of his tone.
It felt like hours that they sat in total silence. Jun had told Satoshi everything there was to say. He told him about the time he met Sho, the time they spent together inside Sho’s special room, about the fact that Jun had fallen in love with Sho. Jun wasn’t sure whether Satoshi was angry at him, or at Sho for daring to steal a part of Jun’s heart from him. The stiffness that surrounded Satoshi at the moment made him more anxious. It was better if Satoshi yelled at him, because he would know his true emotions, but Jun knew better; Satoshi wasn’t like that. He rarely let his emotions take control of him, something that Jun wished he could learn too.
Suddenly it occurred to Jun that this was the only opportunity to ask. At least Jun could say to himself that he tried. Jun took a deep breath.
“Say, Satoshi, do you want to meet Sho?”
~
All three of them were standing in a tense silence at a table, inside the garden of the western coffee shop they went for the first time. The ambience outside was great with the sun shining beautifully and the breeze was perfect. But it felt so chilly due to the tangible tension around them.
Jun cleared his throat to break the silence. “Satoshi, this is Sho.”
“I’m Sakurai Sho.” Sho extended his hand for a handshake in cordial manner.
“Ohno Satoshi.” Satoshi said back, shook Sho’s hand without taking away his gaze from Sho’s.
The handshake was prolonged as both men were in a staring contest, perhaps measuring each other with their eyes. Jun became more nervous. He wanted this meeting to be a good one and hopefully by the end of the meeting they could reach for some form of understanding between them.
“We’ve met before,” Satoshi said suddenly when their hands finally separated. Jun didn’t think that Satoshi remembered because sometimes details could go over his boyfriend’s head.
“Yes, we did.” Sho didn’t even try to deny it and perhaps he didn’t want to.
“I’ve heard so much about you.” Sho added after that.
“Oh?” Satoshi looked at Jun briefly before going back to Sho, his eyes showing interest. “I hope only the good things?” Satoshi asked.
“You can’t believe how Jun was always singing your praises every single time.”
Satoshi blinked at Jun. Jun looked down sheepishly for a brief moment. He couldn’t help it. He was always proud of Satoshi.
Jun noticed that Satoshi was looking less tense. They sat down on their respective chairs.
“I know nothing about you before this,” Satoshi pointed at Sho.
Sho smiled. “I know. Since he told me you didn’t want to know.”
The meeting wasn’t a disaster. There was still a certain edginess sparked in the air all throughout their meeting but it didn’t bother their talk that much. Satoshi put his hand on Jun’s thigh and never let it go, and Sho’s eyes followed the hand, a certain understanding came in his eyes. Jun knew Satoshi was telling Sho subtly that Jun was his. But at least, Satoshi wasn’t flat out forbidding Jun to see Sho again.
~
Both Jun and Satoshi were quietly drinking in a bar. The only sound they made was the sips of their drinks. And the music was loud enough to even drown that out.
“So…” Jun started unsurely.
“Hmm?” Satoshi hummed, hand reaching for another sip of his whiskey.
“Do you like Sho?” It was nerve-wracking to ask but Jun wanted to know what Satoshi thought about Sho, what his impression was when they met.
“If you want me to give you to him, I won’t.” Satoshi said flatly. He turned his eyes towards Jun and locked their eyes. Jun was sure Satoshi was serious and he understood.
Jun gave a nod. Satoshi had said what was on his mind. “Honestly, I don’t want you to do that, Satoshi.”
Satoshi looked at him, his eyes searching the honesty in Jun’s eyes and he found it.
~
“I love you. Don’t leave me,” Jun gasped when his spot was hit.
“You’re mine, Jun, you’re mine.” Satoshi stressed each syllable with each thrust of his hips. Jun was bent over the back of the couch, his hands gripping the top of the soft cushions tightly. Satoshi was a lot rougher than usual tonight but Jun didn’t mind, instead he welcomed the pain that come with him being manhandled by Satoshi.
Jun ended up buck naked on his back on the floor, panting. Satoshi’s come was trickling out of his hole to the floor after Satoshi had come inside him three times that night. His own come was flaking on his stomach. Satoshi had passed out beside him, with his T-shirt still on, his pants was opened on his crotch area, his cock was flaccid resting on his thigh. Satoshi was so cute when he slept and Jun had the urge to touch himself but he was too tired to even move his hand.
Jun hissed in his attempt to sit up. His ass was totally abused tonight. He looked at what happened in their home. There was a come stain on the back of the couch where he had shot his release there. There was a vase on the floor from when Satoshi had hauled him up on the table beside the wall and fucked him there, crushing the flowers when Satoshi mercilessly stepped on them. The floor was dotted with white spots here and there; he didn’t know which was his or Satoshi’s anymore.
That was wild, Jun thought, chuckling slightly. They had never done this before; he never thought that a possessive Satoshi could be this hot.
Satoshi whined when Jun attempted to haul him up so he could sleep on the couch because the bed was too far away so he wouldn’t hurt his back. As he dropped Satoshi on the couch, Jun found himself being pulled inside Satoshi’s arms. He knew both of them were really gross but just for tonight Jun didn’t find it bothered him that much.
~
Jun was texting with Sho when Satoshi came to their dinner table holding a mug of coffee and gave him a peck on his cheek. When Satoshi saw who he was texting he said, “Don’t come home late.”
Jun laughed. Sho had asked him to go out for just a coffee not for sex. He found himself relieved that Satoshi was okay with him seeing Sho after they sat down and talked about it together after that intense sex.
Jun had apologized profusely. Satoshi told him that he had noticed some differences in Jun before the tie incident but he chose to ignore it since they were too subtle that they weren’t became an issue to him. Satoshi had been satisfied with Jun’s words, that whatever happened, even if he had fallen in love with Sho, Jun would always love Satoshi too. And Jun told him that he wanted them to keep living together because knowing that Satoshi would always come back to him was everything to him.
In the end, their trust for each other had saved their relationship.
~
Sho was laughing openly when Jun shared a joke that his friend told him at work. They were spending their free time on a bench facing the river, two cups of Starbuck coffee and sandwiches ready at their sides.
“You know, it’s great that we can spend some time like this,” Sho remarked. He closed his eyes when the breeze hit his face gently, pushing aside his bangs to reveal his wide forehead that Jun found so cute.
“Yeah,” Jun agreed. It was good indeed to smell fresh air. He always liked the smell of river, or water in general. Satoshi played a major part of it too because Satoshi always smelled of ocean.
“So, how’s Satoshi-kun?” Sho asked, a soft smile playing on his lips.
“He’s doing great. Last night he brought a four-foot tuna home. I don’t know how he managed to squeeze everything inside our fridge, but he did.” Jun laughed. He had spent the whole night watching Satoshi cutting the fish and stuffing the meat inside multiple containers.
“He’s amazing,” Sho said, laughing.
“He is,” Jun agreed, feeling proud of him. He turned towards Sho, admiring his gorgeous face. “You are too. Amazing, I mean.”
“Well, thank you,” Sho said with a smug expression that Jun wanted to wipe off with a kiss. It was only a thought though, since they were out in the open with so many people around. He had Sho’s reputation to think of too.
Sho leaned towards him to whisper in Jun’s ear. Jun felt himself blush hearing the words. “You’re perfect. I’m glad it’s you I found.” That was what was said to him. But this time Jun didn’t mind the word Sho used to describe him.
~
Things became normal again. Jun found himself not worrying too much or feeling burdened keeping two relationships going at the same time and he felt that he had done a great job to satisfy both men. He and Sho had been on normal dates where he found himself being doted on by Sho a little too much and they also went through a few more sessions that became more intense each time.
Sho also didn’t have any qualms about leaving hickeys on his body any longer. To his relief Satoshi never asked about those hickeys and the fact that Satoshi would deepen the same hickeys to be more prominent when they were together made Jun happy. It showed that Satoshi had accepted Sho to be in Jun’s life and to a certain extent in Satoshi’s life too.
Jun and Satoshi too had gone on a few vacations, taking the time out of their busy time to spend time together. Satoshi had continuously been gentle with him, and sometimes Jun felt that their foreplay and teasing was getting longer each time because Satoshi was really good at that.
Two different lovers but still two different men that Jun loved so much.
~
Satoshi said he was going out for the whole weekend, to somewhere he didn’t mention to Jun. And at the same times, Sho had texted him to another session at his house at 7.00 PM this Saturday.
The night before Satoshi left, he gave Jun a full body massage, saying that he wanted to make sure that Jun would be in his top condition this weekend. The massage turned into a giggling mess since Satoshi was too ticklish when it was Jun’s attempt to massage him back.
They stared at each other in loving gaze that was clouded by lust as Jun moved up and down Satoshi’s cock at the speed he could manage. Indeed, the massage had relieved some sore spots on Jun’s body due to work and now the tension in his soul was released by having Satoshi’s filling him up the whole night.
Satoshi’s cock stayed inside Jun even after it went flaccid when Jun beg Satoshi not to pull out just yet because he wanted to feel him a little longer. Satoshi had no problem with that at all as they slept together in a tight embrace.
~
Sho brought Jun’s wrists together and strapped them behind Jun. Jun was on his knees, with his ankles also being strapped together. A cock ring was already inserted at the base of his cock. He couldn’t really move as he stared at the single chair that was put not too far in front of him. Jun wanted to ask what the purpose of the chair was but he couldn’t since Sho hadn’t given him the permission to speak yet.
Sho hummed knowingly when two lubed fingers were inserted at the same time inside Jun’s hole. Since Jun had been with Satoshi last night, Jun felt that he didn’t need much preparation. Jun gasped when something big was inserted inside him replacing the fingers and grazing his prostate. He nearly fell face forward when that thing vibrated suddenly. “Shit!” A cursed came out if his lips. He felt even without seeing that Sho was smirking behind him.
The vibration had turned into intermittent pulses and Jun was already breathless. He saw Sho already holding a paddle he once used on Jun, only this time Sho had made sure to ask Jun previously whether he was okay with it and he received a positive response from Jun.
Jun’s body jerked when the paddle hit his buttocks. The smacks and the vibration turned him on, his pre-come already dripping onto the floor.
“Please~,” Jun accidentally said when another smack came near his balls and he felt that he was ready for release but was prevented from doing so by the cock ring.
“Did I tell you to say anything?” Sho gave another smack. Jun was sure that both his butt cheeks were turning red already.
Jun was panting with eyes closed when suddenly he heard the sound of the door opening. He opened his eyes in shock as when he heard a very much familiar voice greeting Sho and then him.
“Sorry, Jun, I’m late.”
Jun was sure his jaw was on the floor. He was speechless as he saw Satoshi, in his white cap, t-shirt and jeans entering the room and walking towards him. Then Satoshi lowered his body to crouch in front of Jun.
“Hi, Jun. Are you surprised?”
Surprised was an understatement. He was paralyzed with shock. He didn’t know what to think, he didn’t know whether he wanted Satoshi to see Jun in this kind of condition but at the same time he was happy that Satoshi was here too.
Satoshi pushed back the lock of hair that was sticking on Jun’s forehead due to sweat. The gentle caress on his face made Jun went soft and willing. “You’re so beautiful, looking all sweaty and flushed,” he said. And then the fingers made a tickling trail towards his jaw. Jun jerked forward when Satoshi applied a slight force on his jaw to make Jun’s mouth open. Then Satoshi kissed him in a sloppy, open-mouth kiss that broke the spell, and then Jun kissed back enthusiastically.
Satoshi’s cap nearly fell back when Jun’s face accidentally tilted it in an attempt for Jun to kiss Satoshi more. Jun’s heart fell in disappointment when Satoshi pulled back.
Satoshi casually sat on the lone chair. Jun saw Sho passed the vibrator control to Satoshi. Satoshi inspected it and testing the button by pushing it. Jun screamed because Satoshi had turned the vibration to full mode. “Sorry,” he said sheepishly. Jun really wanted to shout the profanities openly but he remembered that he hadn’t given the permission to speak yet, not even to curse. He had gotten away once but he wasn’t sure Sho would give him a pass next time.
Jun was trying to control his breathing as he watched Satoshi pull his cap off and drop it onto the floor before leaning back on the chair and fixing his eyes on Jun. He continued watching silently as Sho resumed his spanking with his paddle multiple times. And then Jun let out a moan when Sho attached nipple clamps on him.
During those times Jun’s eyes found comfort in how much darker Satoshi’s gaze became the longer the session went on. The spanking was beginning to sting Jun’s skin.
Then Satoshi suddenly stood up and told Sho that it was enough spanking. Tears were already in Jun’s eyes, relieved than they would move on to something other than spanking.
Jun looked up at Satoshi when Satoshi was directly in standing in front of him.
“Satoshi~,” Jun suddenly called out to him but he jerked backward, arching his body when an intense vibration overwhelmed him. Satoshi had turned on the vibrator to the highest mode, this time intentionally.
“Wha~?” Jun panted when the vibration stopped as he looked at Satoshi in slight shock.
“It’s your punishment for speaking without permission.” Satoshi said. Jun’s eyes widened because he never thought that Satoshi would get involved in this play too.
Satoshi petted Jun’s hair and Jun purred at the attention. Satoshi’s crotch was in front of him and Jun could clearly see that they were tenting already. Jun understood what to do when suddenly Satoshi pushed his crotch in front of his vision.
“Blow me, Jun.” Satoshi said hoarsely.
Satoshi was already opening his zipper and releasing his hard cock for Jun, the pant pooling at the knees. Jun was grateful for it because it would take time to unzip the pants when his hands were pretty useless.
When Jun gave a tentative lick before he covered the head with his mouth, he was suddenly pushed forward to take Satoshi’s full cock. Sho was responsible for it. Sho was behind him, holding up Jun’s hips so his ass was sticking out.
Sho’s fingers slipped inside Jun’s hole, taking the vibrator out and replacing it with his own cock. Jun gasped when he was pushed forward, inadvertently swallowing Satoshi’s cock deeper. It was hard for Jun to breathe and tears stung his eyes as Satoshi’s cock filled up his mouth and hit the back of his throat. After a few moment Jun managed to relax his jaw and throat to receive the full length of Satoshi’s cock inside his mouth.
Cocks were filling him up at both end and Jun felt like such a lucky person to be able to pleasure his two lovers at the same time. He sucked Satoshi off as well as he could as he was taken from behind by Sho. Jun’s body jerked when Sho smacked his butt cheek with every thrust he made, making Jun swallowing Satoshi’s cock more deeply at the same time of the thrust.
Dirty sounds filled up the room.
Sho started to shout profanities. He yelled, “Fuck!” “Shit!” “So good, baby! You’re doing great, sweetheart,” every time Jun intentionally or unintentionally squeezed tight around Sho’s cock, while Satoshi keep chanting his name, “Jun~ Jun~” with his hand holding Jun’s hair firmly every time Jun increased his suction power around Satoshi’s cock.
The compliments from both Sho and Satoshi spurred Jun on more. He tried his very best to please them, even when his own cock was screaming for attention.
Sho’s thrusts had lost the rhythm and Satoshi became more demanding and Jun knew they were so close. Satoshi spurted his come inside Jun’s mouth and Jun eagerly swallowed each drop. He could see Satoshi’s thigh trembling and Satoshi had to hold onto Jun’s head and shoulder so he wouldn’t fall.
Sho was gripping Jun’s hips so tight as he was trying to find his release and when he did, Sho gave out a loud growl as his come warmed Jun’s inside and Jun realized that he wasn’t wearing a condom as usual.
Sho pulled out, and some of the liquid trickled down Jun’s thigh.
When they both released Jun, Jun would have crashed to the floor if it wasn’t for Sho holding him, preventing him from doing so. He leaned back on Sho’s bare chest and whimpered.
“Please… Please…” Jun begged incoherently.
“What is it, love?” Sho asked.
“I want to come… I want to come…” Jun was sobbing openly.
Jun’s thighs were spread apart and Satoshi knelt in between them while Sho held Jun firmly from behind.
“Satoshi… please…” Jun begged.
Satoshi smiled at him, his hand reaching down for the cock ring and releasing Jun from its bind. Satoshi stared at Jun for a moment.
“Satoshi~.” Perhaps Satoshi just want Jun to say his name when he started to touch Jun, rubbing his slit, spreading the pre-come all over his hard cock.
Meanwhile Sho continued holding him from behind, his hands stroking Jun’s chest and abdomen gently – that now Jun realized was free from the clamp - heightening the pressure Jun currently felt inside.
With Satoshi’s expert hand, Jun’s cock twitched, finally coming in spurts, the come filling up Satoshi’s hand and Jun’s stomach. Jun was in daze as he saw Satoshi licking all the come on his hand clean.
~
Both Satoshi and Sho were lying on either side of Jun in bed, holding him after all three of them came out of the shower. Jun smiled watching both of them snoring contently. He basked in the happiness that both men gave him.
He felt happy. Jun loved both Satoshi and Sho and Jun felt their love towards him too. Intensely.
Now he could see a brighter future for all three of them.
To have three hearts intertwined with each other, he could say that he was the luckiest man on earth.
lilly0, continued from part 1Title: Entwined Hearts
Pairing/Group: Ohno Satoshi/Matsumoto Jun/Sakurai Sho
Rating: NC-17
Warnings: explicit sex scenes, BDSM, sex toys, barebacking
Word Count: 23,000++
Summary: Jun is happy with Satoshi and they have a great understanding in their relationship. But when Sho came into Jun’s life, Jun wonders in which direction the relationship is going.
Notes: Dear Lilly0, despite the terrible summary I hope this is okay with you. This is mostly smut with little plot. Please note that there is no cheating involved. Everything is consensual (and as requested, Jun as the sub in the relationship)
To the mod and beta, all the love to you. This fic is ten times better with your help.
Jun gave Satoshi a firm kiss before Satoshi left for the airport with a reminder that he must bring Jun an expensive gift from abroad.
The whole apartment fell silent as the door closed by itself.
Jun sat in his couch, his fingers gathered together in sweaty mess. In five hours from now, he would be meeting Sho at Sho’s house and staying there for the entirety of the weekend. And he felt his stomach fluttering in nervousness and excitement. He didn’t know what to anticipate and it made him slightly afraid. But he had agreed and Sho had said if he want to back out even at the last minute he could. Sho wouldn’t resent him if he chose that.
The wait was killing him. Jun couldn’t keep himself still for the whole five hours. He cleaned the house thoroughly, pulling out his entire wardrobe just to pick which clothes he would be bringing to Sho’s, cooking his best dish but not really eating it in the end because he was too nervous as the clock ticked closer to his appointment with Sho.
Forty-five minutes before 3.00 P.M, Jun shut his door closed. After making sure that it was locked properly, he carried his bag and walked to the train station towards Sho’s apartment. He kept watching his hands the entire time he was on the train, his heart pounding harder the closer he came.
He arrived ten minutes before the stipulated time. Jun waited until it was 3 o’clock sharp before he buzzed the intercom. He was granted entry a second later. He rode the lift and with a deep intake of breath he rang the bell. The door clicked open almost immediately.
The light was dim, so everything looked darker compared to the first time he went there since the curtain was drawn. Jun put his shoes inside the shoe rack and slipped his feet inside a pair of very comfy house slippers. Sho didn’t come to greet him but Sho knew he had arrived so Jun just lingered in the living room, touching the sofa leather since he didn’t know what else to do than wait.
Not long after, Sho showed himself, in a white shirt with a few buttons opened at the top, and a tight black pants that left little to imagination. Jun gulped, hearing his heart beat louder as Sho gestured Jun to follow him.
“Take a shower. I’ll wait in that room.” That room. Jun knew which one it was without needing Sho to elaborate it.
With a simple nod, Jun strolled to the bathroom. His bag was left on the floor in the living room.
Jun took a quick shower. He wasn’t sure whether he should be wearing anything or not but he decided to leave the towel he used on his person and wrapped it around his waist.
When he stepped inside Sho’s room, he saw Sho was standing in the middle of the room with an intense gaze that made Jun’s stomach flutter wildly. The room was bare, besides the drawers that was built at one side of the room. There was a hook on the ceiling, but besides that, there was nothing, not even a carpet. Sho gestured Jun to approach him.
“Do you trust me?” Sho asked when Jun stopped in front of him.
“Yes,” Jun croaked. He felt his heart lodge in his throat.
“Your safe word?”
Jun paused.
“White.” He blurted the word out a moment later.
“White?” Sho arched his eyebrow, in confirmation.
“As in white flag.” Jun confirmed. Honestly, he couldn’t think of anything else even after thinking about it for so long.
Jun saw Sho’s mouth curled up in amusement before he went serious.
“Lose your towel.” Jun loosen up the hold of the towel on his waist and put it aside.
“If you want to stop, just use your safe word. Remember that. Do you understand?”
Jun nodded.
“Yes or no?” Sho was already in his role right now.
“Yes,” Jun managed to say.
“Good. If you follow my instruction I’ll make sure you’ll take more enjoyment out of this, okay?”
“Yes,” Jun replied.
Sho went to his collection, taking a couple of items out and circled around Jun, and stood there. He gathered both of Jun’s hands behind his back and within a minute Jun couldn’t move his wrists as they were firmly strapped together behind him. So, Sho was going to use bondage on his first session. Before Jun could think about anything else, his vision went dark as he was blindfolded. He was completely shocked because he had never been blindfolded before and the situation was making him panic before he heard soft whispers from Sho that he was there with him. Then Jun calmed down a bit because he trusted that Sho would not harm him.
There was a feather-like touch that travelled from his face, to his neck, his clavicles, shoulders and finally to his arms that made Jun shiver slightly. The urged to remove the blindfold was so strong Jun found himself tugging at the bindings that were holding his wrists.
It was annoying to not see anything. Jun didn’t notice that he was tensing.
“Relax.” Suddenly he heard the word being whispered in his left ear. The warmth of the breath shot a shiver through Jun’s body.
“Breathe.”
Jun took a deep breath and released it. He did this a few times, just what he was told. Then he finally sensed his body untensing.
Much calmer than before, he felt that he was more responsive than usual. Sensing Sho’s scent, Jun felt Sho’s presence even though he was pretty quiet right now. That he wasn’t lonely. His sense of sight was blocked but the rest of his senses were heightened.
“Do you still want to proceed?” Sho’s deep voice invaded Jun’s hearing.
“Yes,” Jun answered in the surest sense possible. Yes, he was ready for more.
Then he felt the touch again. He wasn’t sure what material Sho used. For sure it wasn’t the rose petals he previously used on him. It nearly tickled him as the thing travelled further down behind his back, touching the cleft and then it went to the front, and went below to his bellybutton.
Jun nearly laughed out loud. It was ticklish and he was weak to that. For a moment Jun thought what so pleasurable about this ticklish thing?
Jun hissed as it grazed both his nipples. And then Sho attacked him more when Sho ran the thing on the head of his cock in a split moment making Jun gasped.
Okay, now that might change his mind.
He heard Sho chuckle. Most of the time, Sho was quiet, silently doing his thing, only the sound of his breathing was heard. It was quite comforting now to hear Sho’s voice and Jun wanted to listen more, because right now Sho’s voice felt reassuring to him.
“Sho-san?”
“Did I tell you to speak?”
Jun fell silent. He hadn’t thought that he would be told off. He had forgotten Sho’s explanation before they started this: no talking unless permitted because Sho didn’t like that.
Sho resumed what he was doing. The more Sho touched him, avoiding the places Jun wanted the most, the heavier Jun’s breaths became. He wanted to call out to Sho, to replace the toy with Sho’s hands instead because he just wanted to feel more.
His thighs were quivering when he heard Sho again.
“Kneel.” Jun heard Sho say. He needed a moment to be able to understand Sho’s sudden instruction.
The play with the feather or whatever that thing was had left him in an excited cloud. He wasn’t sure why Sho wanted him to kneel, but he followed the instruction. Slowly Jun lowered his body down on the soft flooring. A slight fear passed through him because the blindfold was still on him but at the same time he was eager to follow Sho’s instruction too. He couldn’t see anything but suddenly Sho was a few inches closer to him. Jun was relieved of the presence and he knew it was Sho because of the smell of his cologne.
And then he heard a zip being opened. Jun felt his tension rise. Sho’s cock was on his cheek.
“Suck me.” Sho ordered.
Jun didn’t hesitate. He tilted his head to find Sho’s cock and when he did, he stuck out his tongue to give it a test lick. Sho sucked in some air when Jun wrapped his mouth around the head, swirling his tongue. Jun started slow, wrapping Sho’s cock further inside his mouth, tuning his ears to hear Sho’s reaction to his play. When he heard the sounds Sho made, he felt happy because Sho was reacting exactly like he wanted, giving him the confidence. Jun wanted to give more.
He bobbed his head more vigorously, wanting to pleasure Sho to the best of his ability. Sho grabbed a handful of hair and Jun’s hiss was drowned by Sho’s cock inside his mouth. Jun nearly gagged when Sho started to fuck his mouth and the tip of Sho’s cock hit the back of Jun’s throat. Sho gave a warning when he was close and Jun was ready to accept.
“Swallow it.” Sho gasped out his instruction and Jun found himself swallowing everything that came inside his mouth although some of it leaked from the corner of his mouth and dropped down onto the floor.
Jun was panting on his knees when Sho pull out. Jun felt his cock was hard and he wanted a release too but with both of his hand bound together, he couldn’t touch himself.
“Sho-san~,” He gasped, trying to catch his breath. He licked his swollen lips.
“Did I say I’ve given you permission to talk yet?”
Jun shook his head.
“Answer me.”
“No,” Jun managed to say.
“If you don’t want to be punished, follow what I say, understood?” Sho was still panting. At least to Jun, even if he couldn’t see Sho right now, he was confident that he had done well.
“Yes.” Jun lowered his head.
Jun wanted to come desperately but he didn’t want to move, afraid that he would be denied release if Sho chose to punish him with that. So, he stayed in his position, wondering what else Sho wanted to do with him. He heard Sho walk to his back.
“You want to say anything?” Sho asked from behind. Jun shook his head in denial. He didn’t want to use the safe word. He was confident that he could still withstand Sho’s torturous teasing.
Sho crouched behind Jun. Suddenly, Sho’s lubed finger breached his hole. Jun squeezed his eyes shut, focusing on relaxing himself. With three fingers in, the sensation of pleasure intensified. His activity with Satoshi inside him last night had made him easy to prepare. Sho didn’t remark on it and Jun thought that Sho had probably noticed Satoshi’s bite mark on his shoulder anyway.
Then Sho crooked his fingers, hitting Jun’s spot deep inside him and continuously doing so. Jun mewled and moaned and he was sure he was letting out a sob because of too much attack on his senses. Even so, he wanted Sho to touch his cock too.
In his panting, he thought he heard Sho say something.
“Wha~?” Jun croaked out.
“Tell me what you want.” Sho said.
“I want to come…” Jun said in between pants. He wanted it, no, he needed it so badly.
“Beg me.”
“Please… Please…”
Immediately after that, Jun felt Sho’s hand touching his straining cock. All Jun could feel right now was the fingers moving in his hole and the others on his cock, pumping it until Jun couldn’t think about anything besides the pleasure Sho’s fingers gave him. When Sho crooked his finger to hit his prostate once again, Jun lost it.
Jun let his body crash forward, his come sticking his body to the floor. His breath was so fast he found himself losing his coherency for a moment.
He heard Sho moved behind him and released him out of his bindings and blindfold. Finally, Jun could see. He couldn’t believe how relieved he was to be getting his vision back once more. Sho pulled him up to stand on his feet but Jun’s thighs were still trembling so that he stumbled. But Sho didn’t let Jun fall and Jun clung to him tightly. Sho chuckled. It seemed that Sho had broken his act.
“You did pretty good.”
“Shut up.” Jun managed to say.
Sho led him to the shower and then afterwards they both sat on Sho’s bed, naked bodies wrapped underneath the duvet, with TV in front of them showing a random channel. Sho had brought a glass of juice to his bed and Jun was thankful because he didn’t think that he would manage to walk to the kitchen to grab something to drink.
“Thank you.” Sho said.
Jun turned at Sho, surprised. He nearly spit his fruit juice out of his mouth. “Why?” he asked dumbly.
“Because you’re willing to indulge me.”
Jun stared at him for a moment and then he chortled. “I’m sure many men are willing to indulge you, not just me.”
“Not many that stick around. Most of them run away when they see my collections.” Jun looked at him in disbelief.
“They never thought that someone like me would like something like that,” Sho added.
Jun seemed to agree. At first Jun had been surprised too and wary about the whole thing. But what he went through today made him change his mind, a little bit. Surprisingly, it wasn’t that bad.
“Did you enjoy our session today?”
“Yes, very much so.” It was an honest assessment. Jun smiled when Sho kissed his bare shoulder.
“Just remember, you can back out anytime if you don’t like anything I’ll be trying on you.”
“I remember that.”
It sealed the promise that there would be more sessions after this.
With that they spent the whole afternoon together on the bed, napping for a while before they woke up at 8.00 P.M to grumbling stomachs. They went out to a restaurant to eat and then later on, went drinking together in a bar. Jun found himself more attracted to the man because during this time he could see how comfortable Sho was with him, laughing carefreely and Jun had to say that he loved Sho’s boisterous laugh.
They went back to Sho’s apartment when it was pretty late into the night. Jun found himself being pulled more towards Sho as he showed how affectionate he could be after showing his seriousness during the session. The gap made Jun fall deeper into the pit.
And Jun noticed that Sho’s loud snore could compete with Satoshi’s.
It looked like they could have normal sex after all. Jun had been wondering about whether all their sex meetings would end inside the room but when Sho gave Jun head as morning greeting, it shut Jun up.
And then they had a quick fuck inside the shower stall where finally Jun had the opportunity to fondle Sho’s perky butt. The rest of the day went by normally as they went out to grab a bite and walked together at the park. Jun said goodbye to him later that day and immediately after he walked away from the building he was already missing Sho a lot.
Jun took a deep breath, taking out his phone to find Satoshi had sent him a text message in the morning to tell him that he had arrived safely in Sydney. Jun felt bad because he didn’t notice it before so he sent a message saying that he was glad that Satoshi had made it. Jun smiled when Satoshi sent him a picture of him with a fish he caught afterward.
All in all, it was definitely a great weekend. Even if he had to be alone for the rest of the week and the next few weeks - unless Sho called for him again - he felt that it wasn’t that bad.
However, he missed Satoshi so badly by the end of the week that Jun called Satoshi in the middle of the night and woke Satoshi up in his hotel room. The talk turned into a phone sex and Jun slept great afterwards.
Jun’s phone was his best friend. Every time he started to feel lonely he would bother Satoshi even when he had to wake Satoshi up. Even listening to his breath was enough to Jun. Sometimes, the calls went to Satoshi’s inbox and Jun started to wish that he could call Sho instead.
~
Tomorrow would be Jun’s and Satoshi’s anniversary and Jun had decided to go out drinking with some friends but then he cancelled the plan after he received a message from Sho.
Sho asked Jun to meet him again at his house at 8.00 P.M tomorrow. Jun frowned because tomorrow -besides it being him and Satoshi’s anniversary - was also a weekday. It felt like Sho knew that Jun needed him.
Nevertheless, Jun was excited for another session.
Jun had an hour-long conversation with Satoshi. Satoshi was unexpectedly talkative, perhaps wanting to make it up to Jun for not being there with him to celebrate their anniversary together. Jun assured him he was all right, that he would be meeting a friend right after this. At the end of the conversation, Satoshi told him to take care of himself and be safe and they hung up right after. Satoshi knew that the friend Jun would be meeting was for sex and Jun wondered if Satoshi would change his mind, especially since today was the special day from them but Satoshi didn’t say anything to forbid him. Jun assumed it was all right. If Satoshi had said he disapproved, Jun would cancel his plans with Sho. No question asked.
After Jun had arrived at Sho’s house, as usual he was ordered to take a shower. The feelings of fear and excitement came again. This time there was a table in the middle of the room for them to use. Fifteen minutes later Jun found himself lying flat on his stomach, all his limbs bound to the table’s legs with a rope, leaving him helpless like a starfish stranded on a beach.
At first Jun yelped in pain when he was smacked on his buttocks with Sho’s bare hand, but the yelps turned to moans as Jun adjusted to the sensation and the arousal that filled him with waves of pleasure as Sho’s expert hands worked Jun up.
Despite the difficult position Jun managed to suck Sho off and then received the full extent of Sho’s cock inside him, Sho thrusting into him until the table moved, creaking loudly, the sound mixing with their lusty moans reverberated around the room. Jun was begging Sho to make him come but since Jun still didn’t use his safe word it made Sho push his endurance to a new level. Sho used a dildo on him, abusing his prostate repeatedly before Sho replaced it with his cock and pounded into him for the second time until Jun released without being touched.
Afterwards in bed, Jun leaned back on Sho’s chest. Jun was making a pleased sound as Sho caressed the skin on his wrist as they watched the TV together. Jun loved the aftercare and the extra attention Sho gave him after their session. Jun found himself looking forward to more. It was almost midnight and suddenly his phone that he placed on Sho’s bedside table flashed with a notification. It was from Satoshi. Jun moved to grab it and opened the message, not minding that Sho was able to read the message. Jun didn’t feel the need to be secretive since Sho already knew about Satoshi.
Happy Anniversary once again. I wish that you were in my arms now.
Jun smiled at the message. It was already 12:57 A.M on that side of the world and Satoshi was probably already in his bed. His eyes flitted at the time shown on his phone. Japan was one hour behind. It was nearly the end of their anniversary. He typed. Me too.
Jun managed to send the message one minute before twelve. His phone beeped again indication another incoming message.
I love you and goodnight.
Jun replied, I love you and have sweet dreams, my dear Satoshi.
Then a heart emoji with a sleepy face came up on Jun’s screen.
Jun smiled widely before closing his phone and put it aside.
“So, it’s your anniversary today,” Sho remarked. His hand came up to Jun’s head to play with his hair absentmindedly.
“Yes.” Jun answered honestly.
“But your boyfriend is not here,” Sho stated the obvious.
“No.” It was the truth. And Sho already knew about it.
“Pity that you’re always being left alone.” Sho added later. Jun frowned at his tone.
Jun turned around completely. Sho’s hand hung mid-air when Jun detached himself off Sho’s body. The need to defend his boyfriend was so strong that Jun couldn’t help himself. He didn’t want Sho to misunderstand.
“His job is important,” Jun told Sho firmly.
Sho rebutted almost immediately. “But you’re important too. He should know his priority.”
Jun could feel his whole body tensing. Sho shouldn’t talk about things he didn’t understand. Jun didn’t like hearing him criticize Satoshi when Sho didn’t know anything about his boyfriend. “He’s a good man and I don’t like you implying that he isn’t good to me.”
They stared at each other. A tense moment passed by before Sho smiled apologetically. “I’m sorry. My bad. I shouldn’t intrude in your relationship. It’s clear that you love him so much.”
Jun felt his shoulders relaxing. He took his eyes away from Sho’s, staring at phone like he was waiting for Satoshi’s call or message. “I love him very much,” Jun stated.
His eyes turned to Sho again. For some reason, Jun didn’t want to stop there. Jun had told him briefly about Satoshi before but never in detail.
“I need you to know this,” Jun began.
“Alright,” Sho replied, ready to listen.
“We’ve been through a lot together. I’m sure of my feelings for him now and I’m sure about his feelings for me too. It’s true that he always away because of his job. But I tolerate it because I love him.”
Jun paused.
“At first my thought was the same as yours. Why does Satoshi always leave? Why can’t he pick another job so we see each other frequently, waking up to each other every day, have his warm body next to mine every night? It’s the ideal relationship, right? We live in the same house but why we can’t have that? I always asked him this question repeatedly. He never got angry at me when I sulked and didn’t want to speak to him. It went on for weeks after we got together. You see, we hadn’t seen each other much for quite a long time before he confessed to me and I didn’t understand anything about his job besides going to the ocean and traveling. It can’t be helped when there’s miscommunication involved too. But one day after I went along with him to see what he does in his job, I understood his job better.
I saw his passion. Well, I saw his passion towards me when we were together but when he is in his element, being surrounded by ocean and fish, I saw a different side of him, like he lives to do that kind of thing. His passion in teaching the others about how to appreciate our ocean and its content is admirable. I admire him. I adore him a lot. And since that day, I promised myself to be more understanding and right now, I’m able to accept that. The situation became normal to us because I trust him. We trust each other.”
Jun drew a deep breath.
“After all I’m still a normal human being. I do miss him when he’s not around but we’ll always come back to each other. That’s the most important thing to us.”
He felt his lips trembling. He never told anyone about how he felt towards Satoshi’s absence because Jun believed that the matter was to be kept only between them and now the words easily tumbled off him when he was with Sho.
Jun lifted his eyes when Sho leaned into him to kiss him sweetly on his lips. Sho’s hand was now going up and down his arm in a soothing motion.
“I wish I had someone like you to come back to.”
Jun blinked at Sho. At that moment, the air suddenly turned awkward. There was something in Sho’s eyes that made Jun’s heart suddenly beat faster.
“You have me now.” Jun told him lightly, trying to mask his sudden uneasiness. He didn’t want to go deeper into what Sho was implying there. He didn’t even want to know.
It was Sho’s turn to blink, like he didn’t realize what he had just implied. “Yes, I have you now,” Sho said after a moment just to break the awkwardness. Sho pecked his lips. Jun sighed, not sure whether it was out of relief that Sho didn’t steer the topic to what Jun wasn’t ready to discuss or just because the kiss Sho gave him now was to his liking.
They kissed more. Sho deepened the kiss, his arms wounded possessively on Jun. It was like he wanted to own Jun too but that was impossible, Jun was Satoshi’s. But for tonight, Sho owned him.
When Jun’s tired but content body crashed down on Sho after he rode Sho’s cock, he heard Sho whisper to him.
“Show me your Satoshi.”
Still panting, Jun looked at Sho in question, scrutinising him whether Sho was indeed serious. Sho shrugged. “I just want to see the person who has your heart right now.”
Jun moved to picked up his phone and unlocked it.
Jun let Sho look through the pictures on his phone. “Cute.” Sho said. Jun agreed wholeheartedly.
“I wish you could meet him one day,” Jun added, lowering his head on Sho’s chest, pouting because he didn’t know how it could ever happen. Sho stayed silent, kissing Jun’s head instead.
~
Jun gave his boyfriend the biggest hug when Jun picked him up at the airport. “I missed you a lot!” Jun said to him before they kissed rather briefly because of Satoshi’s friends beginning to coo and whistling at them. Jun, feeling heat creeping up his cheeks, grabbed Satoshi’s hand to head towards the taxi.
Right away as they opened their apartment door, Satoshi pushed Jun against the wall and they fucked before they could even get their clothes off. Jun clung to Satoshi with all his might feeling his boyfriend’s cock moving inside him and filling him up with his come. He had really missed his boyfriend.
After that they were catching up with each other during a late lunch where Jun brought Satoshi to an Italian restaurant and then went shopping until Satoshi complained that his legs were nearly falling off. Jun reminded that they had to make up the time they missed since Satoshi had promised that he would do anything Jun wanted to do because he had missed their anniversary. Even though Jun hadn’t been too lonely that day, a promise was a promise. Jun laughed when Satoshi nearly fell asleep inside the shoe shops as Jun took his time picking a pair of shoes. “I choose based on feelings!” Jun said to Satoshi when his boyfriend told him to be faster.
They were leaving the shop when suddenly Satoshi bumped into a gentleman in suit. Jun nearly gasped openly when he saw that it was Sho. Sho bowed a little to apologize at Satoshi and they had a few words while Jun just looked at them, dumbfounded. He didn’t understand why he couldn’t say anything when Sho smiled at him before he walked away. Jun wondered whether it was intentional or not. Sho didn’t look annoyed, instead he looked pretty satisfied with himself.
Right after that Jun told Satoshi that he wanted to go home. Jun successfully hidden the fact from Satoshi that he was pretty shaken up with the sudden turn of event. He wanted Sho to meet with Satoshi but it should be a well-planned meeting not a sudden, unexpected occurrence like what had just happened.
He wanted them to start off on the right foot.
~
Jun’s life went back to its usual pace right after. The unexpected meeting was pushed to the back of his mind. Sho didn’t contact him and vice versa. Jun was relieved because he was busy with his boyfriend now. Satoshi was having a month holiday so it was Satoshi’s turn to stay at home. Jun was happy because every night when he came home, Satoshi had already prepared him a meal and a hot bath. He was being totally spoiled by Satoshi and he found that he wasn’t thinking about Sho too much when his boyfriend was around.
But when he was alone, and had time to think to himself, such as when he was commuting to and from work, he found himself thinking about Sho as much as he thought about Satoshi. Jun didn’t think his feelings towards Satoshi was wavering but instead it was his feelings towards Sho which had grown a lot.
He felt afraid of his feelings. He wasn’t sure whether it was the right feelings to harbour for someone else other than Satoshi but it felt wrong to him. But what could he do? He didn’t want to lose Sho either, that thought frightened him.
He chose the easiest route; to ignore the unwanted and confusing thought for the time being.
It felt like Satoshi’s holiday came to an end a bit too fast for Jun’s liking when he needed to go away for his work again. And it was like Sho knew that Jun was beginning to feel lonely when he texted Jun again for another session.
~
“You’re so flexible,” Sho said as he pulled both of Jun’s legs upward, the ankles nearly reaching Jun’s head. Sho then proceeded to strap those legs with ropes to the armchair that Sho owned. Jun, who already had his hands bound behind his head was straining on the sofa, buck naked. He wasn’t really that flexible but he could bend his extremities when the situation required him to do that, like right now. Sweat was gathering on Jun’s temple and Sho wiped it away.
With him bound firmly to the armchair, he was totally exposed and vulnerable. He couldn’t move even a bit. A small button that would chime when it was pressed was held firmly inside his fist.
Jun’s moan was muffled with the ball gag preventing his mouth from speaking as Sho touched his flushed cock when a dildo was pushed inside him. Jun could hear clearly the squelching sound the dildo made when it went in and out of his properly lubed hole. He could only stare at Sho as he expressed how Sho’s ministration was doing to his body with his eyes. Saliva was trailing out the corner of his mouth, dripping onto his neck and Sho left it there without bothering to wipe it.
The whole time Sho was staring at him smugly, whispering dirty words to Jun that heightened Jun’s arousal. Jun eventually had to close his eyes when he was close to climax. His whole body was shuddering as he orgasmed. He tried to jerk away when Sho touched him again since he hadn’t calmed down yet. He was still so sensitive and Sho was deliberately touching the over-sensitive slit on the head of his cock and then pumping his softening cock. But the restraints held him tightly in place. Jun was helpless. He wanted to scream that it was too much to him. He felt he hadn’t recovered from the first orgasm and yet Sho went on to get him his second one. Jun’s fist tightened around the button but no sound was made because despite the complaint Jun screamed in his head, he actually didn’t want Sho to stop.
Jun didn’t think that he could get hard again but he did. Perhaps his refractory period was suddenly shortened on that day when Jun felt that he was hardening again in Sho’s fingers with the constant touch. Jun found his eyes rolled back in intense pleasure and a whine came out of him as he shuddered for another climax.
Jun was pretty wasted afterwards and as usual he let Sho care for him. They were quietly eating their dinner at the dinner table when Sho said calmly to Jun something that made Jun nearly spit out his food.
“I want to meet your Satoshi properly.”
~
Jun was troubled. He found that he couldn’t concentrate anywhere, whether at home or at work. At least at work when it got too busy it took away his attention for a while but then, he went back to his preoccupied state when he took a break.
All his mind was thinking of was how to break the topic to Satoshi. He had tried once but failed. As expected, Satoshi could be stubborn when he wanted to. He remembered the conversation they had when Jun drove Satoshi back to the airport after Satoshi came back home briefly to surprise Jun.
Recently Satoshi often did this in an effort to make it up to Jun for missing their anniversary and Jun couldn’t deny that he was happy about it.
They were talking casually, mostly Jun asking about how Satoshi was doing since they were too busy fucking instead of chatting.
Right after a prolonged silence, Jun could see the sign for the turn to the airport not so far ahead of him and thought that it was now or never.
“Say Satoshi…” Jun said nervously. He could hear Satoshi hum in reply and he felt his throat drying.
“About the friend of mine, he-“ Jun was cut off abruptly.
“I’ve told you, you’re free to do anything you want as long as you’re happy and safe.”
“But Satoshi, he-“ Jun tried again but he was also interrupted for the second time with a drastic change of topic.
“Oh, you need to turn to the left.” Satoshi pointed at the sign.
Jun managed to steal a look at Satoshi who was looking in front of him, now humming a song. He was in disbelief. It was clear that Satoshi wanted to avoid the topic. Internally Jun was frustrated but he needed to focus on his driving and made the turn to the right road.
After that, they kept their silence until they said their goodbyes.
Jun huffed in frustration as he saw the plane Satoshi was aboard flying away to the horizon.
After the fail attempt, Jun decided to leave Sho’s request buried at the back of his mind. Sho didn’t bring the matter up again during another session that came after that.
Jun’s wrists were hooked onto the chain that was connected to the ceiling. His body jerked every time Sho’s paddle that was made out soft leather touched his skin. Jun squeezed his eyes shut, trying to concentrate on the sensation. At first, he felt just a tiny sting and his mind wandered unwillingly to what was troubled him the most; mostly about the matter with Satoshi and Sho. However, when the hits began to feel painful to him, he let out yelp after yelp as the paddle hit him. He could’ve used his safe word this time, but he didn’t want to disappoint Sho so he endured the pain. His mind drifted in and out and he didn’t notice that Sho was saying something to him.
Then everything stopped. Jun cracked open his eyes in confusion and saw Sho crowding his face. Did he do something? Did he utter his safe word?
“You’re distracted,” Sho told him.
Jun widened his eyes. How did Sho know? Was it too obvious? He asked himself.
Sho unhooked him and lead him to the bedroom.
“I want you to rest here,” Sho said softly, as he laid Jun gently on his bed. All the while Jun was staring at him he wondered why Sho looked worried about him.
When Sho climbed on the bed to be beside him, wrapping his body around Jun, burying his face against Jun’s neck, Jun realized that his whole body was trembling and sweating. Sho told him that they had been doing it for more than an hour and Sho hadn’t seen any signs that Jun was enjoying it. He was sorry that he was ignoring the fact that Jun wasn’t enjoying as much as he was because he was too eager to use the newly bought item on Jun.
Seeing how Sho was so apologetic and trying hard to soothe him, Jun felt so bad that he made Sho unhappy. He had disappointed Sho, he had failed him today and he was so upset about it.
So, he turned around, burying his face in Sho’s still-fully-clothed chest and cried. Jun heard the panicked noises Sho made but he ignored Sho’s calls as he tried to desperately calm Jun down.
It turned worse when Jun started to worry that he might lose Sho sooner or later, that he cried harder.
That was the time when he realized the depth of his feelings for Sho: he had fallen for him hard and he was so helpless.
Jun apologized to Sho. Immediately after his tears had ceased he excused himself. Jun refused when Sho offered to accompany him or even drive him back to his apartment. The guilt was eating Jun up when he saw Sho’s worried face. He said goodbye to Sho on his entryway, feeling himself choking up as Sho placed a soft kiss on his forehead.
Why was Sho showing his lovely side when there was an important decision for him to make?
“Call me when you’ve arrived at home,” Sho said, his hand touching Jun’s arm. Jun gave a noncommittal nod that made Sho frown. Jun turned to the door effectively denying Sho’s attempt to kiss him when he reached for the door handle to open the door and stepped outside quickly, letting the door separated him from Sho as it closed by itself.
Jun buried himself inside his blanket when he arrived home, refusing to answer the call when his phone rang incessantly. It was probably from Sho and he didn’t want to talk to him right now. By the end of the hour, there were six missed calls from Sho and a text message from Satoshi. He didn’t answer any.
It wasn’t Sho’s fault. The problem came from him. He had gotten carried away. He stared blankly at himself in the full mirror inside his room, fully naked. The redness on the different spots on his body from the spanking that Sho gave him were still visible when he made his decision; to stop seeing Sho, to stop everything they started.
The choice was either Satoshi or Sho and when he found himself unable to choose, he had gotten scared.
He was in love with both of them.
And he couldn’t accept it because there was no way he would break up with his boyfriend for Sho.
Besides, he didn’t even know what was Sho’s feelings towards him. For all he knew, there could be nothing.
His heart twisted painfully.
~
“Earth to Jun!”
Jun blinked when a hand was waved in front of him. He was out drinking with Aiba who was currently in Tokyo to attend a short course on behalf of his company. They couldn’t pass up the opportunity to drink together because they hadn’t seen each other for quite some time.
Aiba was staring at him with worried eyes.
“Is there something wrong?”
Aiba could be so perceptive when he wanted to be. Or it was just Jun being too obvious.
“Nothing,” Jun denied too quickly. He brought his beer to his lip for a long sip, just as an excuse not to speak. Obviously, he didn’t look convincing when Aiba tutted at him, in disapproval of Jun’s pathetic attempt to lie.
“Matsujun, you can’t lie to me. Tell me what’s wrong? Is it Satoshi?”
For the next few minutes, Jun was able to hold his ground and resisted Aiba’s incessant coaxing but he finally cracked, because it was Aiba.
So, he told Aiba everything there was to tell; about his relationship with Satoshi, about their unique arrangement, about meeting Sho and the nature of their relationship and finally how he was currently in love with both men.
Aiba’s jaw was threatening to drop onto the floor by the end of Jun’s story. Jun supposed that it was too shocking to take for his poor friend.
“So, what you’re going to do?” Aiba asked, after he managed to recover.
Jun sighed as he buried his head in his hands. “I don’t know Masaki, I really have no idea.”
~
The phone felt so hot on his ear. Jun was much calmer after talking for over two hours with Satoshi. The talk was about random topics. Jun didn’t think he could even insert Sho’s name inside the conversation.
He was already comfortable in his pyjamas, lying alone on the bed he shared with Satoshi. His eyes were nearly closing as he said his goodbye over the phone. Jun sighed when his eyes accidently flitted to the books he borrowed from Sho which were placed on the bedside table. They seemed to be mocking him. Then he sighed again when he checked his phone battery.
The battery nearly died and he needed to recharge it. As he reached the charger, his phone suddenly rang and before he could see who was calling him it died with a beep.
After the phone was successfully turned on, he checked his call log. His stomach fluttered when he found out that it was Sho. Jun was contemplating whether to call him back or not but he thought it was better not to. If he did, it might melt his resolve the moment he heard Sho’s voice.
It wasn’t like him to be evasive and let things hang just like that but his emotions were too fragile right now. He might run to Sho if he wanted Jun right now. He couldn’t let that happen, not until he talked to Satoshi properly, face-to-face.
~
Jun received text messages from Sho and there weren’t about him inviting him to his home. Instead they were laced with worry… and desperation.
Jun, are you okay? Call me back, please.
Please. Jun chuckled bitterly as the word reminded him of one of their session where he had to beg Sho.
Talk about the longing…
Then there was another one. We need to talk. Call me.
Jun sighed as he exited the apps and closed his phone before he slipped it into his pocket.
~
After a week of refusing to reply to any of Sho’s contact, he found himself being pulled to the nearest emergency exit in his workplace by someone who had such a familiar scent to him.
“Sho-san? What are you doing here?” Jun squeaked in surprise as he was thrown into the wall in a thud.
Sho looked scary when he was angry. “I’m here on business but that’s beside the point. You’re avoiding me. Why?”
“I— I’m not… What are you talking about?” Jun denied, but he was stuttering when Sho pinned him to the wall with their bodies nearly touching but not yet. A hand was slammed onto the wall near to Jun’s face and another one gripping Jun’s arm tightly. Sho’s body heat and scent overwhelmed Jun; he wanted to bury his face into that scent and stay there forever.
“Is it because Satoshi is forbidding you from seeing me?” Sho asked seriously.
“No!” Jun denied sincerely.
“Then why?” Sho’s voice sounded fragile, so far from the initial anger and his normal behaviour. His shoulders dropped, making the sloping more pronounced, even with the pads in his suit.
When Jun didn’t answer, Sho continued in a whisper. “Is it because of our last session? Was I being too hard on you?”
Jun turned up and locked his gaze with Sho. Sho’s breaths were fanning his face and he looked so desperate, Jun wanted to cup his face and kiss every inch of that face.
“I can’t anymore… I’m not strong enough…”
“Then why didn’t you tell me?” There was thin layer of moisture on Sho’s eyes and Jun felt like breaking down. A thought passed him. Why was he being cruel to Sho? Sho genuinely thought that it was because of what had happened last time when it wasn’t. Sho deserved the whole truth.
“… I love Satoshi…” He blurted these words out, effectively denying that their last session was the culprit.
Sho narrowed his eyes at him. “That didn’t hold you back before. What changed?”
“What changed...” Jun nearly chuckled in bitterness and resignation.
Jun sighed, dropping his gaze to his feet. He chewed his lower lip. “Because I’ve fallen in love with you. That’s why…” he whispered, not really caring if Sho heard him or not.
Jun felt like he wanted to run away, he felt stupid to see Sho stare blankly at him, like Jun was making a stupid joke. What was he thinking? Confessing to Sho?
Sho loosened his grip. Jun was holding back his tears. In the pit of his stomach he was sure that Sho would leave him right after this. Since Jun had let his feelings get the better of him, he was going to lose Sho. They had never discussed the possibility of the situation occurring before and Jun assumed that someone like Sho might not want anything to do with feelings. Sho had everything, he could get anything and anyone he wanted; why would he want to get involved with something complicated like feelings? Especially with someone like him who had an established relationship with someone else? As far as he knew, it could be one-sided on his part.
His mind wandered to his boyfriend, who was now in Hokkaido. Satoshi didn’t know about Sho and probably didn’t care about him but he was sure that the situation would be different if Satoshi found out that Jun loved someone else. That would break their trust completely.
His stomach twisted with the possibility of everything ending up badly. He could be losing both Satoshi and Sho at the same time.
Sho was still looking at him emotionlessly. Jun couldn’t stand the hurt and the humiliation he got from the look. It was better to go, Jun thought as he couldn’t stand the tension any longer so he pushed Sho away, who was standing still like a mannequin, a handsome one at that and as the result Sho stepped back to give Jun space.
But before Jun managed to reach the door, he made an oomph sound when Sho grabbed him tightly from behind.
Jun’s eyes went wide hearing Sho’s words that came next.
“I’ve fallen for you too…”
~
Jun and Sho sat face to face at a table inside a coffee shop. The scent of coffee filled up Jun’s nostril and he basked in it, inhaling it as the smell calmed him.
They didn’t need words to pass the time. Sho had less than an hour more to spare before he needed to go somewhere. At least the confessions had helped settled their misunderstandings. Jun smiled at Sho, feeling shy all of the sudden. Sho smiled back as he put his coffee cup down on the table.
“I’m glad we settled this. I thought I was going to lose you.”
“I have to apologize for that…” Jun said, feeling his guilt at his thoughtless action creep up on him, making his cheeks flushed. To be honest he thought he’d lose Sho too.
“Don’t be. It’s my fault too,” Sho added.
No, Jun said in his mind, Sho had nothing to be sorry for. He reached for Sho’s hand resting on the table.
“I promise I’ll talk with Satoshi when he gets home.”
Sho smiled warmly.
~
The timing was never right. Jun was either out of town when Satoshi came home or Satoshi was out again when Jun was home. For the time being he wasn’t seeing Sho either. They had agreed on it in that coffee shop.
So, it was a rather a desperate situation when he opted to watch some porn after not being with either men for over three weeks and he was horny.
Satoshi looked like he was just coming back from a formal event when he showed himself at the door to their apartment. He still had his suit on when he found Jun naked on the couch in front of the TV, touching himself. Satoshi shed his suit quickly before walking towards Jun with his shirt and tie still on him. Immediately it made Jun so happy he welcomed him with open arms. Jun whimpered and moaned as Satoshi was doing his best to make Jun feel good. It was without thinking that when Satoshi came up to kiss him, Jun loosened up Satoshi’s tie and then showed Satoshi the tie that was in his hands. “Tie me up with this.” Jun didn’t realize his words due to his lust but when Satoshi seemed to freeze and eventually moved away from him that Jun realized the full extent of his request.
Jun’s heart was beating wildly as he saw Satoshi sat on the couch in their living room so quietly it made Jun scared and hesitant to approach him. Then after some time Satoshi spoke. Jun had to strain his ears in order to hear him.
“Who is he?” Satoshi asked.
Jun shivered due to the coldness of his tone.
It felt like hours that they sat in total silence. Jun had told Satoshi everything there was to say. He told him about the time he met Sho, the time they spent together inside Sho’s special room, about the fact that Jun had fallen in love with Sho. Jun wasn’t sure whether Satoshi was angry at him, or at Sho for daring to steal a part of Jun’s heart from him. The stiffness that surrounded Satoshi at the moment made him more anxious. It was better if Satoshi yelled at him, because he would know his true emotions, but Jun knew better; Satoshi wasn’t like that. He rarely let his emotions take control of him, something that Jun wished he could learn too.
Suddenly it occurred to Jun that this was the only opportunity to ask. At least Jun could say to himself that he tried. Jun took a deep breath.
“Say, Satoshi, do you want to meet Sho?”
~
All three of them were standing in a tense silence at a table, inside the garden of the western coffee shop they went for the first time. The ambience outside was great with the sun shining beautifully and the breeze was perfect. But it felt so chilly due to the tangible tension around them.
Jun cleared his throat to break the silence. “Satoshi, this is Sho.”
“I’m Sakurai Sho.” Sho extended his hand for a handshake in cordial manner.
“Ohno Satoshi.” Satoshi said back, shook Sho’s hand without taking away his gaze from Sho’s.
The handshake was prolonged as both men were in a staring contest, perhaps measuring each other with their eyes. Jun became more nervous. He wanted this meeting to be a good one and hopefully by the end of the meeting they could reach for some form of understanding between them.
“We’ve met before,” Satoshi said suddenly when their hands finally separated. Jun didn’t think that Satoshi remembered because sometimes details could go over his boyfriend’s head.
“Yes, we did.” Sho didn’t even try to deny it and perhaps he didn’t want to.
“I’ve heard so much about you.” Sho added after that.
“Oh?” Satoshi looked at Jun briefly before going back to Sho, his eyes showing interest. “I hope only the good things?” Satoshi asked.
“You can’t believe how Jun was always singing your praises every single time.”
Satoshi blinked at Jun. Jun looked down sheepishly for a brief moment. He couldn’t help it. He was always proud of Satoshi.
Jun noticed that Satoshi was looking less tense. They sat down on their respective chairs.
“I know nothing about you before this,” Satoshi pointed at Sho.
Sho smiled. “I know. Since he told me you didn’t want to know.”
The meeting wasn’t a disaster. There was still a certain edginess sparked in the air all throughout their meeting but it didn’t bother their talk that much. Satoshi put his hand on Jun’s thigh and never let it go, and Sho’s eyes followed the hand, a certain understanding came in his eyes. Jun knew Satoshi was telling Sho subtly that Jun was his. But at least, Satoshi wasn’t flat out forbidding Jun to see Sho again.
~
Both Jun and Satoshi were quietly drinking in a bar. The only sound they made was the sips of their drinks. And the music was loud enough to even drown that out.
“So…” Jun started unsurely.
“Hmm?” Satoshi hummed, hand reaching for another sip of his whiskey.
“Do you like Sho?” It was nerve-wracking to ask but Jun wanted to know what Satoshi thought about Sho, what his impression was when they met.
“If you want me to give you to him, I won’t.” Satoshi said flatly. He turned his eyes towards Jun and locked their eyes. Jun was sure Satoshi was serious and he understood.
Jun gave a nod. Satoshi had said what was on his mind. “Honestly, I don’t want you to do that, Satoshi.”
Satoshi looked at him, his eyes searching the honesty in Jun’s eyes and he found it.
~
“I love you. Don’t leave me,” Jun gasped when his spot was hit.
“You’re mine, Jun, you’re mine.” Satoshi stressed each syllable with each thrust of his hips. Jun was bent over the back of the couch, his hands gripping the top of the soft cushions tightly. Satoshi was a lot rougher than usual tonight but Jun didn’t mind, instead he welcomed the pain that come with him being manhandled by Satoshi.
Jun ended up buck naked on his back on the floor, panting. Satoshi’s come was trickling out of his hole to the floor after Satoshi had come inside him three times that night. His own come was flaking on his stomach. Satoshi had passed out beside him, with his T-shirt still on, his pants was opened on his crotch area, his cock was flaccid resting on his thigh. Satoshi was so cute when he slept and Jun had the urge to touch himself but he was too tired to even move his hand.
Jun hissed in his attempt to sit up. His ass was totally abused tonight. He looked at what happened in their home. There was a come stain on the back of the couch where he had shot his release there. There was a vase on the floor from when Satoshi had hauled him up on the table beside the wall and fucked him there, crushing the flowers when Satoshi mercilessly stepped on them. The floor was dotted with white spots here and there; he didn’t know which was his or Satoshi’s anymore.
That was wild, Jun thought, chuckling slightly. They had never done this before; he never thought that a possessive Satoshi could be this hot.
Satoshi whined when Jun attempted to haul him up so he could sleep on the couch because the bed was too far away so he wouldn’t hurt his back. As he dropped Satoshi on the couch, Jun found himself being pulled inside Satoshi’s arms. He knew both of them were really gross but just for tonight Jun didn’t find it bothered him that much.
~
Jun was texting with Sho when Satoshi came to their dinner table holding a mug of coffee and gave him a peck on his cheek. When Satoshi saw who he was texting he said, “Don’t come home late.”
Jun laughed. Sho had asked him to go out for just a coffee not for sex. He found himself relieved that Satoshi was okay with him seeing Sho after they sat down and talked about it together after that intense sex.
Jun had apologized profusely. Satoshi told him that he had noticed some differences in Jun before the tie incident but he chose to ignore it since they were too subtle that they weren’t became an issue to him. Satoshi had been satisfied with Jun’s words, that whatever happened, even if he had fallen in love with Sho, Jun would always love Satoshi too. And Jun told him that he wanted them to keep living together because knowing that Satoshi would always come back to him was everything to him.
In the end, their trust for each other had saved their relationship.
~
Sho was laughing openly when Jun shared a joke that his friend told him at work. They were spending their free time on a bench facing the river, two cups of Starbuck coffee and sandwiches ready at their sides.
“You know, it’s great that we can spend some time like this,” Sho remarked. He closed his eyes when the breeze hit his face gently, pushing aside his bangs to reveal his wide forehead that Jun found so cute.
“Yeah,” Jun agreed. It was good indeed to smell fresh air. He always liked the smell of river, or water in general. Satoshi played a major part of it too because Satoshi always smelled of ocean.
“So, how’s Satoshi-kun?” Sho asked, a soft smile playing on his lips.
“He’s doing great. Last night he brought a four-foot tuna home. I don’t know how he managed to squeeze everything inside our fridge, but he did.” Jun laughed. He had spent the whole night watching Satoshi cutting the fish and stuffing the meat inside multiple containers.
“He’s amazing,” Sho said, laughing.
“He is,” Jun agreed, feeling proud of him. He turned towards Sho, admiring his gorgeous face. “You are too. Amazing, I mean.”
“Well, thank you,” Sho said with a smug expression that Jun wanted to wipe off with a kiss. It was only a thought though, since they were out in the open with so many people around. He had Sho’s reputation to think of too.
Sho leaned towards him to whisper in Jun’s ear. Jun felt himself blush hearing the words. “You’re perfect. I’m glad it’s you I found.” That was what was said to him. But this time Jun didn’t mind the word Sho used to describe him.
~
Things became normal again. Jun found himself not worrying too much or feeling burdened keeping two relationships going at the same time and he felt that he had done a great job to satisfy both men. He and Sho had been on normal dates where he found himself being doted on by Sho a little too much and they also went through a few more sessions that became more intense each time.
Sho also didn’t have any qualms about leaving hickeys on his body any longer. To his relief Satoshi never asked about those hickeys and the fact that Satoshi would deepen the same hickeys to be more prominent when they were together made Jun happy. It showed that Satoshi had accepted Sho to be in Jun’s life and to a certain extent in Satoshi’s life too.
Jun and Satoshi too had gone on a few vacations, taking the time out of their busy time to spend time together. Satoshi had continuously been gentle with him, and sometimes Jun felt that their foreplay and teasing was getting longer each time because Satoshi was really good at that.
Two different lovers but still two different men that Jun loved so much.
~
Satoshi said he was going out for the whole weekend, to somewhere he didn’t mention to Jun. And at the same times, Sho had texted him to another session at his house at 7.00 PM this Saturday.
The night before Satoshi left, he gave Jun a full body massage, saying that he wanted to make sure that Jun would be in his top condition this weekend. The massage turned into a giggling mess since Satoshi was too ticklish when it was Jun’s attempt to massage him back.
They stared at each other in loving gaze that was clouded by lust as Jun moved up and down Satoshi’s cock at the speed he could manage. Indeed, the massage had relieved some sore spots on Jun’s body due to work and now the tension in his soul was released by having Satoshi’s filling him up the whole night.
Satoshi’s cock stayed inside Jun even after it went flaccid when Jun beg Satoshi not to pull out just yet because he wanted to feel him a little longer. Satoshi had no problem with that at all as they slept together in a tight embrace.
~
Sho brought Jun’s wrists together and strapped them behind Jun. Jun was on his knees, with his ankles also being strapped together. A cock ring was already inserted at the base of his cock. He couldn’t really move as he stared at the single chair that was put not too far in front of him. Jun wanted to ask what the purpose of the chair was but he couldn’t since Sho hadn’t given him the permission to speak yet.
Sho hummed knowingly when two lubed fingers were inserted at the same time inside Jun’s hole. Since Jun had been with Satoshi last night, Jun felt that he didn’t need much preparation. Jun gasped when something big was inserted inside him replacing the fingers and grazing his prostate. He nearly fell face forward when that thing vibrated suddenly. “Shit!” A cursed came out if his lips. He felt even without seeing that Sho was smirking behind him.
The vibration had turned into intermittent pulses and Jun was already breathless. He saw Sho already holding a paddle he once used on Jun, only this time Sho had made sure to ask Jun previously whether he was okay with it and he received a positive response from Jun.
Jun’s body jerked when the paddle hit his buttocks. The smacks and the vibration turned him on, his pre-come already dripping onto the floor.
“Please~,” Jun accidentally said when another smack came near his balls and he felt that he was ready for release but was prevented from doing so by the cock ring.
“Did I tell you to say anything?” Sho gave another smack. Jun was sure that both his butt cheeks were turning red already.
Jun was panting with eyes closed when suddenly he heard the sound of the door opening. He opened his eyes in shock as when he heard a very much familiar voice greeting Sho and then him.
“Sorry, Jun, I’m late.”
Jun was sure his jaw was on the floor. He was speechless as he saw Satoshi, in his white cap, t-shirt and jeans entering the room and walking towards him. Then Satoshi lowered his body to crouch in front of Jun.
“Hi, Jun. Are you surprised?”
Surprised was an understatement. He was paralyzed with shock. He didn’t know what to think, he didn’t know whether he wanted Satoshi to see Jun in this kind of condition but at the same time he was happy that Satoshi was here too.
Satoshi pushed back the lock of hair that was sticking on Jun’s forehead due to sweat. The gentle caress on his face made Jun went soft and willing. “You’re so beautiful, looking all sweaty and flushed,” he said. And then the fingers made a tickling trail towards his jaw. Jun jerked forward when Satoshi applied a slight force on his jaw to make Jun’s mouth open. Then Satoshi kissed him in a sloppy, open-mouth kiss that broke the spell, and then Jun kissed back enthusiastically.
Satoshi’s cap nearly fell back when Jun’s face accidentally tilted it in an attempt for Jun to kiss Satoshi more. Jun’s heart fell in disappointment when Satoshi pulled back.
Satoshi casually sat on the lone chair. Jun saw Sho passed the vibrator control to Satoshi. Satoshi inspected it and testing the button by pushing it. Jun screamed because Satoshi had turned the vibration to full mode. “Sorry,” he said sheepishly. Jun really wanted to shout the profanities openly but he remembered that he hadn’t given the permission to speak yet, not even to curse. He had gotten away once but he wasn’t sure Sho would give him a pass next time.
Jun was trying to control his breathing as he watched Satoshi pull his cap off and drop it onto the floor before leaning back on the chair and fixing his eyes on Jun. He continued watching silently as Sho resumed his spanking with his paddle multiple times. And then Jun let out a moan when Sho attached nipple clamps on him.
During those times Jun’s eyes found comfort in how much darker Satoshi’s gaze became the longer the session went on. The spanking was beginning to sting Jun’s skin.
Then Satoshi suddenly stood up and told Sho that it was enough spanking. Tears were already in Jun’s eyes, relieved than they would move on to something other than spanking.
Jun looked up at Satoshi when Satoshi was directly in standing in front of him.
“Satoshi~,” Jun suddenly called out to him but he jerked backward, arching his body when an intense vibration overwhelmed him. Satoshi had turned on the vibrator to the highest mode, this time intentionally.
“Wha~?” Jun panted when the vibration stopped as he looked at Satoshi in slight shock.
“It’s your punishment for speaking without permission.” Satoshi said. Jun’s eyes widened because he never thought that Satoshi would get involved in this play too.
Satoshi petted Jun’s hair and Jun purred at the attention. Satoshi’s crotch was in front of him and Jun could clearly see that they were tenting already. Jun understood what to do when suddenly Satoshi pushed his crotch in front of his vision.
“Blow me, Jun.” Satoshi said hoarsely.
Satoshi was already opening his zipper and releasing his hard cock for Jun, the pant pooling at the knees. Jun was grateful for it because it would take time to unzip the pants when his hands were pretty useless.
When Jun gave a tentative lick before he covered the head with his mouth, he was suddenly pushed forward to take Satoshi’s full cock. Sho was responsible for it. Sho was behind him, holding up Jun’s hips so his ass was sticking out.
Sho’s fingers slipped inside Jun’s hole, taking the vibrator out and replacing it with his own cock. Jun gasped when he was pushed forward, inadvertently swallowing Satoshi’s cock deeper. It was hard for Jun to breathe and tears stung his eyes as Satoshi’s cock filled up his mouth and hit the back of his throat. After a few moment Jun managed to relax his jaw and throat to receive the full length of Satoshi’s cock inside his mouth.
Cocks were filling him up at both end and Jun felt like such a lucky person to be able to pleasure his two lovers at the same time. He sucked Satoshi off as well as he could as he was taken from behind by Sho. Jun’s body jerked when Sho smacked his butt cheek with every thrust he made, making Jun swallowing Satoshi’s cock more deeply at the same time of the thrust.
Dirty sounds filled up the room.
Sho started to shout profanities. He yelled, “Fuck!” “Shit!” “So good, baby! You’re doing great, sweetheart,” every time Jun intentionally or unintentionally squeezed tight around Sho’s cock, while Satoshi keep chanting his name, “Jun~ Jun~” with his hand holding Jun’s hair firmly every time Jun increased his suction power around Satoshi’s cock.
The compliments from both Sho and Satoshi spurred Jun on more. He tried his very best to please them, even when his own cock was screaming for attention.
Sho’s thrusts had lost the rhythm and Satoshi became more demanding and Jun knew they were so close. Satoshi spurted his come inside Jun’s mouth and Jun eagerly swallowed each drop. He could see Satoshi’s thigh trembling and Satoshi had to hold onto Jun’s head and shoulder so he wouldn’t fall.
Sho was gripping Jun’s hips so tight as he was trying to find his release and when he did, Sho gave out a loud growl as his come warmed Jun’s inside and Jun realized that he wasn’t wearing a condom as usual.
Sho pulled out, and some of the liquid trickled down Jun’s thigh.
When they both released Jun, Jun would have crashed to the floor if it wasn’t for Sho holding him, preventing him from doing so. He leaned back on Sho’s bare chest and whimpered.
“Please… Please…” Jun begged incoherently.
“What is it, love?” Sho asked.
“I want to come… I want to come…” Jun was sobbing openly.
Jun’s thighs were spread apart and Satoshi knelt in between them while Sho held Jun firmly from behind.
“Satoshi… please…” Jun begged.
Satoshi smiled at him, his hand reaching down for the cock ring and releasing Jun from its bind. Satoshi stared at Jun for a moment.
“Satoshi~.” Perhaps Satoshi just want Jun to say his name when he started to touch Jun, rubbing his slit, spreading the pre-come all over his hard cock.
Meanwhile Sho continued holding him from behind, his hands stroking Jun’s chest and abdomen gently – that now Jun realized was free from the clamp - heightening the pressure Jun currently felt inside.
With Satoshi’s expert hand, Jun’s cock twitched, finally coming in spurts, the come filling up Satoshi’s hand and Jun’s stomach. Jun was in daze as he saw Satoshi licking all the come on his hand clean.
~
Both Satoshi and Sho were lying on either side of Jun in bed, holding him after all three of them came out of the shower. Jun smiled watching both of them snoring contently. He basked in the happiness that both men gave him.
He felt happy. Jun loved both Satoshi and Sho and Jun felt their love towards him too. Intensely.
Now he could see a brighter future for all three of them.
To have three hearts intertwined with each other, he could say that he was the luckiest man on earth.
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OMG, I can't wait to read it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Will come back with a proper comment when I read it!! <3Finally back with a proper comment!! Dear Anon, I LOVE this so much! I never thought someone would pick this prompt up. It was actually one of my most-wanted-to read prompts! So, thanks so much ♥
I love Satoshi here, he is so patient and understanding and sweet. But I also love Sho, he is full of passion, cool, eloquent and all that. The contrast between these two is huge, of course Jun fell for both of them. It was really pleasant and interesting to read how different these two are and how different they approached Jun and especially how different the smut was. Satoshi was so gentle, while Sho had his little 'play room'
Which leads me to the next point: THE SMUT! OMG, I love you for including almost everything I had in my kink list. Everything was so good - the part with the feather, the bondage, the spanking etc. Thanks for writing so many sessions for Jun ;-)
I found it also so believable when Jun freaked out once he realized he likes Sho too, fell in love with him. Poor Sho, he had to feel crushed in these days, thinking he hurt Jun or something. I'm glad Jun was honest to him though, and Sho too. And they both acknowledged their feelings for each other.
I was scared that maybe Ohno would get really mad, but he tried to understand it.Huge respect to him, because I'm sure he loves Jun more than anything else, and he probably knows that him being away all the time opened the door for Sho. Allowing Jun to have affairs was a risk to begin with, because you can never be sure who he meets. But even though there is Sho in their lives now, I think to Jun Satoshi holds a particular place in his hearts. Like, he is on a pedestal, and Jun would never leave him. I think Satoshi knew that (and also once he realized Jun actully sang praises on him while meeting with Sho (!)) It also shows how much Sho loves Jun though, because he readily accepted Jun's relationship and even the way he praised Satoshi.
The threesome at the end was so fullfilling! I'm so happy that in the end, Sho and Satoshi thought of something together (!) And it was great when Satoshi joined the play and actually punished Jun.
In general all the smut was so hot!
I really love the endng, with all three of them having sex and sleeping next to each other. Maybe in the future Sho and Satoshi will also like each other, and all three could live together and hit it off *dreaming*
Thanks so much for this great story!! I read it twice by now, and will definitely come back to it again <3 Thank you so much, Anon, I had a blast reading it! (and thanks for fullfilling all of my weird wishes! You are truly awesome! ♥♥♥♥♥)
PS: Also love that you squeezed in all Arashi guys <3
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You don't know how relieved I am that you like this story. For the whole time I was freaking out. First with the limited time that I got (my writing time was cut short with my unfortunate health) and second, I can't believe I'm writing a fic full of smut and I've no idea whether I could pull it off at all. I would like to write more details but yeah, I'm really bad at that lols.
Ohno/Jun/Sho is the threesome pair that I really like. I feel like Ohno and Sho are the perfect person who can be dominant and take good care of Jun. And also they're very different from each other. Therefore when I saw that you really like the pair to be written my mind just focused on it without much thought. Somehow it turns out into this 20k+ words. For some reasons I can't write something shorter nowadays lols
And also, I don't know how most of your kinks ended up in this story! lols I'm embarrassed lols
Perhaps, if I got some inspiration, I might write something extra on this? Just a paragraph or two though (only if I got the time >.<)
Thank you, thank you so much for your lovely comment! It made me feel a lot better after knowing that you like it
hugs <3
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(I love Ohno/Sho/Jun as a threesome pair <3 And your story was wonderful! I was so happy when I read it <3 Thank you again!)